Huilun 13.10.1992 Singapore Life Church GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU Provided by International Bible Society
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Saturday, March 29, 2008
Goodness me. Cant u like stop calling me stupid already?!
grahh this is beginning to kill me. I use to think thAt its because there's some communication barrier or smth. like not anymore lar. its cleary that u don't listen to me and u think that u know me inside out and that u can control my life and all. Sure. I can empathize that u think I'm very stressed and wanna lift up a bit of my burden since this year is my Os buden im still in sec ACH, I still have a life, I'm still striving for things I want and all. So please stop trying to restrict me and all and let me handle my stress myself and all. Its like the way I study and all is difersnt from what u expect and what u see frm my two elder and very smart siblings. So stop comparing. Tonight u admitted that of was precisely that I'm not as smart as them and that I can't MANAGE my TIME. Again with the time ting! GRAHHHHH! That was exactly from your lips okay. I remember exactly what u said. Its like so hurtful and so demoralizing. Not like I'm not doing my best and all. And apparently I'm stupid and a money-draining daughter. GRAHH! I'm not the one taking money frm u constantly. I'm even afraid to ask for just $5 extra. U keep saying we're taking money frm u. FYI I don't. I pay for a lot of things myself okay. Also, mr I can totally sympathize with u but wait I'm busy with smth else- I'll comfort u some other time. If u like helping me and all then help. Its like whatthe. If not stay away frm me. If not u can just go die la. GRAHH! I wanna cry larssssss.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
i need to pray
oh mys. its been such a long time since i blogged. haha
anyhoos, after the long disappearance of my blog i doubt there'll be any body reading anymore. i'm studying for bio now. todays chem SPA was nearly screwed. haha updates! ONE TERM IS GONE. it is like so damn fast. i cant stand it. is it me? grahhh. time's a running! and its like running real fast. haha, muttons so ridiculous. anyhoos, i've been improving STAGGERING-ly. hopefully by Os i'll be at the IMPROVED stage just hopefully and why everyone keep saying i'm not putting enough effort or i dunno how to manage my time its not my fault my life has many sudden events coming up. its not my fault that i have to go for them cause they are kinda compulsory. i cant stand it lars. its like i cant even blog. haha. or go out. or play. i wonder how the others students and do everything in time lars. T.T i asked a few. they can cause they: #1. no CCA. #2. no church commitment (as in church committee or anth) #3. not christian #4. has tuition #5. dropped a lot of things they use to take for me i've done #5 only. coze tuition just doesnt work for me. i have a CCA i'm entirely devoted to. i am a christian with responsibilities in church which i love too. you know serving God is a wonderful thing. i cant drop THAT. sheesh. so much for time-management. somebody even didnt go church just to study. tsk tsk. grahh. church camp, choir camp. i'm in all comms. i really appreciate that the church camp com allowed me not to go for meeting. i really thanku guys. coze its like i got not enough time to do anth now, not enough time to sleep, rest on study and guess what, i'm down with a flu AGAIN. STUPID FLU. fly away please. anyways. so many issuesi'm juggling with. lets see, hmm. a lot personal and private. grahh this is to one issue: i dunno if i'm like the only one who realizes this. but please, u are my friend, i dun wanna be the only one trying to salvage our friendship. please. we're not outcasting u or anth, we wait for u all the time, but u seem to always go to the other person instead why har? we use to be able to hang out together so well. den just coze a ______ __ _____ u behave so differently. we are trying our best to allow u into our clique, u were always in it, but u are the one not even looking at me. u look uninterested at everything we do, are we really that lame. please lar. we regard u as a close friend. u shldnt be doing this to me u noe how much u mean to me. i like miss ur lameness. well call me jealous. but u really shldnt do that, u've like lost ur sense of identity? i hope not, and again i pray for u hopefully u might come to your senses and realize that we were always here for u. i will not make any more moves as i've tried my hardest already. i'll just seat back and see how long it takes u to realize that we were always here. another issue: i dunno what is exactly going on but i hope u guys and mature from this issue. i'm not siding anyone. although i noe i'm a bit biased coze one of them is a close friend. i know u guys have faults. everyone has just forgive each other please. its a bit childish. one has and the other? i really pray that it wont affect all ur studies. come on, i dun really know u guys that well but i have u guys and pull through, lets all be neutral peace makers of the world. i hope. i really wish that all the mistakes made and wrong steps taken could be reversed. but whats done is done, u cant change the past, but u can help make a better future? do it for urself. if u really cant forgive den prove them u can do without. revenge is not sweet at the aftermath. ^^ i pray for u guys both a lot. everynight. hopefully it'll help maybe not a lot but a minute scale? antoher issue: we all have to mature, and grow up. its about time u did too. we'll all be leaving next year but i hope u can cont what u started. it is a commitment, not just a group. it is a "family" not just friends. they mihgt have all given up on ubut i rreally dun wanna. but if u refuse to change i dunno what i can do. all those things i've put ion for u. please dun make me feel like i've wasted all that time and all. i have faith, u shoudl too. continue to pray and i will too. 2 prayers and make a huge difference. i know she is too. in the bible they said that 3 ppl can make a worship already, amth liddat. its just the 3 of us now, so lets make the full use of this strong prayer together? i have faith u can do it. ^^ pray. |
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