CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Monday, January 26, 2009

YAY YAY! CHINESE NEW YEAR. :D

PHOTOS PHOTOS PHOTOS!

MOREMORE MORE! i wanna take more, shall post soon. :D
so far only kope photos from gideon, i'll be waiting for xinyi and sheila to send me photos too! so cool today, me, blod and sheila wear the same dress! :D yay!

ohh wells, here are photos of my wonderful wonderful cousin nicole!

haha. anyways, tml still going malyasia, so if u cant reach me sorry :P
i'm gonna go watch tv :D
i will blog when i have more photos!

~TOODLES!<3

Sunday, January 18, 2009

all about being GREY

Meredith Grey: Communication. It's the first thing we really learn in life. Funny thing is, once we grow up, learn our words and really start talking the harder it becomes to know what to say. Or how to ask for what we really need.

Meredith Grey: "After careful consideration and many sleepless nights, here’s what I've decided. There's no such thing as a grown-up. We move out, we move away from our families. But the basic insecurities, the fears and all the old wounds just grow up with us. Just when you think life has forced you to truly become an adult, your mother says something like that. We get bigger, taller, older. But, for the most part, we're still a bunch of kids, running around the playground, trying desperately to fit in."

actually not really in the mood to blog, but i shall.

sat, went choir, met Gideon and his friend Sebastian at geylang east library, den ate dinner den went to church for the mission conference. haha. so funny.

sunday, went CHURCH:D, ate lunch with mum again(WHICH SO DOES NOT MAKE ME A LOSER GIDEON) den came home watched grey's anatomy. IT WAS SO AWWW. lets just say i cried through 2 episodes. hahaha.

anyway, i'm all abt Grey's now. cause i just finish watching it mah. haha. well, here are some GREY'S QUOTES!

Meredith Grey: At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross.

Meredith Grey: You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true.

Meredith Grey: Okay, here it is, your choice... it's simple, her or me, and I'm sure she is really great. But Derek, I love you, in a really, really big pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. So pick me, choose me, love me.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

upset&grateful

i shall start with, GIDEON SIM, GET WELL SOON :D
NO MORE CHILLI FOR YOU! hahahaha.

yes, O level results are out.
no, i'm not too happy.
yes, i'm still going CJC
no, i like it there.
yes, i'm gonna work harder.
no, i'm not depressed just upset.

okay, results? not too good.
L1R4: 12, L1R5: 15

i never thought i'll get this high, cause i like just touched the self-expectation line, so BAH. well, once i'm done wallowing in sorrow, i am now rejoicing cause at least i still get to go CJ and well, that means i did smth right to be kiasu, so to say. but i never really was happy with ppl keep on telling me i dun need to work hard cause i'm DSA student, well i proved them wrong didnt i?

i studied like friggin hard and i got 15. so if i didnt DSA, i think i'ld be going poly. it was a leapt for me and i'm glad, i don't regret it cause the ppl there are nice and cool. well, i figure that since this is what i got, there's nothign to change it, dissapointed? yes.

BUT yet i am grateful. cause i believe like, whatever God has in plan for me, i'll be ready. right now, i just hope i can do well for A levels, dunno lar, so scary, why cant i just have "xiao chong ming" like my siblings, sometimes, i wonder why i work so hard for. th answer never really comes, but i still do. haha.

oh wells, God is wonderful, and he will guide me as life goes, so wherever and whatever happens, i shall not complain, haha. CAUSE ONE OF MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION is to rejoice and be thankful no matter what. haha. PLACING MY ALL WITH GOD :D not to forget not to gossip :P,

oh wells, off i go, to play peiyong's PSP! haha.

Sunday, January 04, 2009

LUNNIE HAS FALLEN ILL ONCE MORE, i dunno what i'm gonna do. but i dun wanna go to the doctors!

i'm so sad! i dun wanna see the doctor, NO. NO. NO!

anyways, pass few days had church "retreat" more like church MEETINGS. haha.
but it is always fun during church meetings, a litlle boring, serious and fun. haha. :D

anyways, i'm so sad i cldnt go to faith4/2's steamboat. :(
GRAHHHH.

anyways, got gideon's PSP to play! so i've got some compensation, if not i damn bored man... hahaha.

but ohh! today was so wonderful! THANKYOU GOD. haha.

i'm like sick right, but praise team was awesome, i like cant pray in chinese usually hor, i prayed into the mic in chinese today! i like didnt prepare for cell today, but we smoked through extremely well and everybody had fun! i like had technical difficulties with my ppt, THANK YOU GOD xinhua broguth her laptop and mushi had his thumbdrive! :D WHOO!
life is GREAT WITH GOD!

anyways, off to bed!

TOODLES;;

Friday, January 02, 2009

ohmygosh. although i'm not at school i still have so much things to deal with! grahh!
my brother, CJchoir, EPA mtgs, church stuff. again, same as usual, i have totally 0% of my time for my social life, i already made appointments with my friends, in which i sorta owed them, cause in a way i didnt go out with any of them since mid yrs like that, i finally went out with gid and wicheng only and i now have to cancel my plans with charis and yuxiu and again with gid and minwei for dinner tonight. and with huiyu and ms ng for the CCA niche selection thingie, there is so much i can say to the Sec1s during their orientation! i really wanna go, i really wanna go and talk to them and all.

though i might sound like a silly sec4 that cant let go of her disgusting secondary school life and keep going back, at least it is doing smth i enjoy! sure i do enjoy my other commitments, but it is still a freaking transition i'm not used to yet okay? sheesh. UNDERSTAND THAT. i'm not used to sudden practices and all, i'm used to fixed practices, okay, since i have given up my time and all and said okay, i'll join and i'll commit, but i havent exactly fit in if u look carefully, i havent exactly stepped out of my comfort zone, i am getting there, but not yet, so can u please just give me a freaking moment to rant and sort out my thoughts and priorities?

yes, i've made this commitment, so i shall go for choir, nothing else said, i shall.
just go because i've made a new commitment and i shall continue with it. calling the teacher and telling her that i still have another life in sec school wont help. she doesnt understand from what i've seen.

they don't understand, they think that i have a life dedicated wholey to CJ already, so THEY DONT UNDERSTAND. i will just subcomb to whatever fate i led myself into. i havent gone out in almost a year. cause i said i commit to several things. i said i can cope and i did. i made space for all these things, i did. if i did it last year, i can do it again. don't think for one second that i will give in and crumble, no matter how hard the tasks i receive i will rejoice in it and praise God for giving me such a difficult task in the end, all these won't break me down, i will survive and i will show u that i can cope.

i am commited and i will forgo many things. just you wait, i'm not that DSA girl u assume cant do nothing. i can do all that i promised cause i have God, i will forgo my social life first just so u know, so friends i may not be able to go out but i will still try. fix a time first, if i can make it i will. i will be strong, i will rejoice. GRAHHHH.

Thursday, January 01, 2009

YESYES! i am updating again, ahahahaha.

as promised! PHOTOS! before that, i shall just say this!
haha, today went marina barrage.

haha. it was kinda fun. next time 1520 can go there, very pleasant there. :D
its so fun to run about there. hahaha.

nice right :D, hahahaha. a lot of wind. :D

it was like fun. :D hahaha. okay, some nice korea photos!
i shall only put SOME, the rest please go facebook see :D
here are the links to my facebook korea albums :D -- link1 , link2, link3, link4, link5

hahaha! somany photos!
anyways, since this is a new year, things i want :D >>
1) O level results to be LI XIANG
2)to grow into a even better christian
3)enjoy and adapt to JC life
4)organise cell group outing!
5)new watch
6)new handphone(which is not very possible!)haha

hahahahahahaha.
many more perhaps, but so far, i'm limiting myself to this, cant be too greedy ehh. haha.

anyways, frankly speaking i'm pretty satisfied with what i've got now. so i dun really need anth. :D

cause i've got GOD! :D
haha. anyways, this year has been hectic and tiring, but i like really learnt a lot and grew too. maybe not physically, but mentally and spiritually and i hope the new batch of 1520-ers that are coming up would grow too :D

anyways, last night slept at like 4.30am, i should like take a nap before dinner! hahaha.