CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Sunday, March 25, 2007

tis might be caused due to too much oreo cookie cornflakes.
but i dun care.

coze i'm so dissapointed in u dat i'm actually taking time off frm studying chem to get ur stupid comments off my back.

tis is for u:
u idiot.
i hate u.
why are u bad-mouthing me.
its nt as if I did anyting to u.
wadz ur freakin prob.
i didnt do anyting u pig.
si zhu.

dangnabit. i didnt do anything.
all i did was audition 4 times.
coze there wasnt a single replacement.
u wanat me to ask aaron goh to go arnd begging for ppl to replace each other?
not only will they grumble, they'll do lots other stuff.
and den they'll think its Ms Loh's fault.
its either dat or there'll be lots of conflicts which, i might wanna add, wanna AVOID at ALL COST.
u dun even noe wadz goin on.
so hu r u to say tis?
i tot u were nice.
i looked at u as a mentor.
i'm such a fool.
cant believe i did dat.
i'm so WRONG.
u aint right anyway.

cant stand ur freakin attitude.
wadz ur prob hur?
u tink i'm damn act har?
den u leh?
PIG.
i hate u for who u are.
cant stand u.
cant u even leave steph alone?
her BF, her & the ppl she wanna let noe prob. not urs.
ultimately still hers.
wa lau.
u're an absolute irritant.

i'm lyk at a loss.
so many probs.
feels lyk they'll piling up one stack lyk 1 stack, juz lyk my HWs and TESTs.

i apologise to the ppl in my church for not bein able to contribute my best. coze i'm so cropped up wth church.

anyway.
the reason why i gave dat face coze not only was it my dunno number wad audt.
i was thinkning abt my HW. and my tuition.
coze i keep 4getting to bring my chi txbk.
and to keep my results up to *(my parents')* standard,
i hafta work super uber hard.
plus work hard everyday, for every single sub.

i cant afford to drop one.

i cant afford to fail one.

i wont see day-light if i do.

only God can help me.
so u bug off.
i hate u.
i misjudged u.
u cheated my trust, my belief in u and my confidence.
so i wont be battered by ur awful remarks.
instead i'll work harder and push myself to the brim so dat u'll understand dat i'm still better den u.
datz a reason why i'm vice-chair and u're not.

tis post has also helped me gain back the confidence i loss long ago.
too bad.
i've become more ego..
juz lyk u.
but u're worst.
u aint a christian, u 4got to be humble. and u 4got ur rights, ur wadevas.

i juz simply hate u.

enuf wth the emo.
okay.
THINK HAPPY.

okay.
TODAY IS SUNDAY!
my fav day.
a day i can actually slack.
in the morn dat it is..

anyway.
SO SAD XINYI WAS MISSED.
yizhen.
i love u lots kay?
dun be upset lyk tis morn, i was SO DARN worried.
didnt noe wattado.
i used to be gd at comforting ppl.
apparently, i lost it somewhere in pri sch.
so i didnt darae to accost to u tis morn.
i was afraid i wld dhurt u.
i didnt want dat.

stupid weifu, didnt even try. BLEAHH.

well after church, went eat lunch wth parents and sis.
stupid sister.

den went to buy grocery.
den slept for 1hr.
den woke up.
study till now.
obviously, i got slack in betweens lar.
lyk now for i.e.

cant believe i'm actually usin my word power words.
haha.
*(think happy not sarcastic!)*

i feel lyk a sadist.
haha.
nvm.
RANDOM-NESS.

practiced everyone and dravidian wth bro juz now.
oh yar.
nicholas kwek.
u suck.
wa lau.
step my shoe till i got blister!
BLEAHH.
thank goodness i didnt feel it.
if not mentally, i'll noe it.
den i wont be able to walk.
its the mind game.

anyway.
ytd, i came home slept lyk a pig frm 4+ to 7++
haha. so happy i cld actuaully slp.
but today cannot liao lar.
muz study.
okie.
i better go study.
tis bloody post so long.
hehe.

i shall pray!

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

okie.
i'm actually blogging a day b4 the stinking wordpower test.
anyway.

yesterday was sorta fun.
and SUPER UBER WEIRD.

anyway.
it was SO scary.
i tested charles.
oh my gosh.
i wanted to slap him left right up down.
urgh.
WHY WONT HE LISTEN?
sheesh.

anyway..
turns out.. as i said earlier in my dunno wad post..
I WILL DO WELL IN MY 2nd TEST.
guess wad.
i got 19.5/20 for my math test.
i noe.
for some weird reason.
it feels weird to actually be *smart. (in a sense)
SO DAMN WEIRD.

okie.
the freaking 0.5 mark was lost thanks to the stupid graph.
IT WASN'T SMOOTH ENOUGH.
curse u stupid curve ruler.
ugh.
anyway.

tomolo got wordpower.
den fri got geog.
oh man.
i damn scared lars.
and the STUPID SCHOOL.
gave me a freakin LAST MINUTE notice of some STUPID freaking leadership conference!
STUPID LAR!!
stupid stupid stupid.
ugh.
it was SO last mintue.
the freakin thing is lyk tml lor!
i got piano tml lar!
STUPID.
dang you.
stupid school.

oh yar.
the vp and p coming over to hear us sing on friday.
so scary.
all the HODs will be there too.
wad the hell..

Sunday, March 18, 2007

i dun understand u.
i dun noe u
i keep changing lyk a snake changes its skin.
i always tot u were the leopard type.
u never change
u're unique and diff.
guess i was wrong
why are u treating me lyk tis?
why do u hv to bcome so unfeeling.

sudden;y, everyting is abt u.
i use to be able to drop a few hints.
after which u get the picture dat i need ur shoulder.
but den. now, if i dun tell u directly, u wont noe.
wad the hell.

i'm so dissapointed in u.
wadeva happened to the 1 yr we spent together.
wadeva happened to all that talk.
all that talk of being together 4eva.
wadeva happened to all dat talk of we'll still be bestfrenz nxt yr.
and "i'll always be there."
and "we'll be together 4eva"
"we'll nv be apart no matter wad"
"we'll grow old together."

u seem lyk an unfeeling bein now.
i tot u werent.
i miss the old u.
whenever i tell u:can i tell u someting? i'm crying.
u noe it.
even b4 i tell u dat i'm crying u noe.
i can juz say: can i tell u someting?
but why cant u tell now? when i juz said it?
why are u so.. contradicting?
hypocrite?
i dun wanna hate u.
coze its ur happiness.
i cant hate u 4 dat.
u found ur happiness wth them.
buden, u nv turn back to spare me a thought either.
u juz cont wth ur life lyk i nv existed.
i'm hurted.
u still dun get the picture.
i still dun get why u dun get it?
i'm hurted.
i'm upset.
i'm speechless.
i'm disappointed.
i'm crying.
i'm upset.
so upset wth u.
wa lau.
u juz spoiled my day.
now everytime i talk to u, look at u..
i feel awkward.
i feel... sad.

SUNDAY ROCKS

always..
hehe.
anyway.
the day started off bad.
coze i woke up late.
den i reached church.
saw yi yi.
den walked wth her to church.
den saw weicheng n MINGCHE LAO SHI!
haha.
den someone gave me some look.. i was lyk... wadz wth dat look....?

okie.
den went for praise team.
after dat sing sing sing.
wa lau. xinyi and yizhen good lar.
leave my bag there...
den lionel got his hands all over it... i'm lyk WA LAU..

den went for lessons.
was FREEZING.
den went out for dao gao hui.
pei yong veri funny.
denno wad he doin.
he blew up his cheek and looked at me den poked it..
i was lyk.... huh..??
haha. so comical.
anyway.
den went to eat lunch wth family.

wa lau.
sze zhe gave me a SUPER PERVERTIC LOOK.
i'm still horrified.
okie. den went home.
den watched hannah montana on peekvid.
haha.
den i'm lyk multi-tasking.
word-power, watchin phantom of the opera on channel5 and blogging.
okay.
so weird.
nvm.
haha

PHANTOM OF THE OPERA DAMN NICE LAR.
i love it to bits.

okie.
i'm gonna revise my wordpower.
HOPEFULLY. i can rmber them tml.

dang. i'm lyk looking at the words on the 1st page and they look so ALIEN to me..... die.

~~u scare me.~~
u seem to split so many times.
u seem diff infront of me and infront of ***.
u seem weird when we meet.
u dun understand my feelings do u?
u're confusing me.
u're making me mad.
oh tian arh~ help me.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

today went east coast with my family!
well. the nigu one.
not the real one.

anywayz.
THE SADDEST PART WAS....
blod and sean werent there. so empty.
oh man...

anyway.
had lots of fun.
went bowling blah.
walked lyk most of the time.

wa lau.
nick damn pro in bowling.
to tink i won him the 1st time we played.
-.-
i loss lar.
STUPID WEIJING.
he damn ass lar.
suan me lyk siao

make me lauff until i dun even noe wad i doin..
but still!
i won yizhen. :)

hehe.
anyway.
the saddest part was to talk to *****.
to realise dat... well lots.

i too am dissapointed in you.
i cant believe the new u is so fake.
i cant believe u're behaving tis way over a guy.
cant believe that the person is you.
cant believe dat u can actually treat ur fren tis way.
cant believe dat u wld neglect ur fren's feelings to get ur way.
u seem to be taking advantage of me.
i hope i'm NOT rite.
i hope i am TOTALLY wrong.
i hope dat u wld not behave tis way to hurt all of us.
i hope u understand dat in LIFE, there are always something MORE den GUYS.
there is God.
u seem to be the type dat noes God more den i do.
show it to me den.
i cannt believe u.
dun live in denial pls.
i cant stand u no more.
w/o HER u find me.
w/o me, u find her,
she is even more hurt kay.
for reasons dat u shld noe.
i pray again for ur matter.
for her feelings.
for my feelings. and for ur conscious to be clear.
and for my dear fren who's heart is shattered.
do not be disheartened. for the LORD your GOD is always there for u and i.
we can seek his help thru a simple prayer. <3s!

Monday, March 12, 2007

whoo hoo!
i changed the skin.
shit.
i duun tink i cacn finish burning all the CDs by tomolo 4 choir.
tonite i dun need to slp liao lar.
wa lau.
STUPID COMPUTER!!

anyway.
tis morn came back frm church camp.
i shall elaborate...

1st Day:
arrived in church 4 service. had er tong shi ban.
went to that other church and saw kingyan.
den rushed back to church.
dengot the games and PPT and lunch rdy.
rushed thru my lunch.
dene started the thingies!
had station games..
nick's grp was quiet. 4 some uncanny reason.
pauline's grp was hilarious.,
THEY DID THE OH MAMA DANCE SO WELL!

wanyi's grp(which is mine)..
scored the highest.
they were thte funniest.
and they were gr8!
of coze, wanyi, weijing lena, xinyi, chun ai and me!!

den we went bowling.
b4 dat mel called.
found out mel had fever last nite.
den mel didnt come churuch.
den went bowling.
den had internal bleeding on my thumb.
den went esplanade to watch Take 6 concert.
THEY WERE GR8.
LOVED Them.
gave them a standing ovation.
and THREE encores.
den went back to church.
played captains ball wth my $** dress and tights barefooted.
den sent yizhen and minwei off.
talked to jeanntte and ruth while waiting 4 xinyi to come.
den after xinyi came, went to look 4 yizhen's LOST watch.
and found out mins later dat it was wth her. -.-
den went to bathe.
den went to rm47.
den i remembered i havent eat dinner.
den we played taitii wth jeannette, pauline, anad a few others.
den watched epic movie while talking to yizhen.
den weijing kept on saying: TALKING BEAVER! KICK THE TALKING BEAVER!"
something lyk dat.
wa lau.
after dat everyone slept.
except 4 the 4 of us.
den we pretended to slp.
den we went out to play taitii wtht lionel.
THIS IS THE EXCITING PART!
he farted.
twice.
HAHAHAAHAHa.
den went back in.
den lionel slept, dene xinyi, nick, weijing and i watched see no evil.
but xinyi was sleeping, only me nick and weijing watched.
it wasnt as scary as it was gruesome.
haha.
den slept at abt 4.30 - 4.45.
den weijing slept at 5.00.
coze he was listening to sze zhe the orchestra.

2nd Day:
woke up at 7.00.
went to buy toothbrush and toothpaste wth xinyi.
den nick and weijing bought chips.
den went back to church for devotion and breakfast.

den set off to the hydroponics farm? or dunno some grassy farm.
walau.
ji siao me lor.
den after dat went to wad? i tink goat farm.
disgusting goat milk.
had so much fun taking photos and feeding!

YIZHEN WAS MISSED! <3s!

den went to the frog farm.
i tink.
or was it the other way round...?
okay
nvm.
its the same.
THERE WAS A CUTE DOGGY THERE!

den went to Sungei Buloh.
HAD LYK SO MUCH FUN...?
okay.
nvm.
there something depressing irritating me...

den after dat
we went back to church and den back home!
den did HW.
ate dinner.
bathed.
OBVIOUSLY.
den i'm currently trying to burn all the 6 CDs.
which i'm lyk taking 4eva.
wawd the hell.
stupid computer.

if i cld.. i wld blog abt the other thingy.
butu i'm tired.
and i wanna watch my show!!
hehe!
LOVE MY NEW BLOGSKIN!