CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Monday, June 14, 2010

Waiting.....

Sometimes I think I expect too much. But I guess I do that out of live. But shouldn't I be more accepting if it's out of love? Idk. This thoughts are frying my brain. Waiting. Have you ever sat there for a WHOLE day waiting for at least ONE msg? But hopes are dashed everytime. So I guess that leads me to keep thinking abt this. And leads to my frequent tossing and turning on the bed. I wish I didn't need to use my brain so much. It makes me really tired. So tired from waiting. So tired from thinking. So tired from worrying. So tired from trying not to think of it. So tired emotionally physicaly and doesn't really help me to study either. I hate myself.

While I understand there are many things that occur at the same time so cannot reply but it's torture! So naturally these thoughts will appear in my head. NOBODY'S FAULT. Mine at the most for being so overly sensitive abt the tiniest things. Which is absolutely STUPID. I am stupid to keep thinking abt it. Aiyar. Stupid dun wanna think abt it anymore. Will try not to but I doubt it.

Anyway, waiting for cool pics to be uploaded dun really feel like blogging.

Sometimes for no rhyme or reason I just need you; I guess that's why I hope so much. Too much until it turns into expectation. And that won't happen cause things u hope for doesn't usually come true. well, sometimes I just need you. For nothing. Nothing at all.

Saturday, June 05, 2010

i hate mugging

i hate mugging i really really HATE mugging. i'm so tired from mugging. sometimes there is so much to mug until idk HOW to start WHERE to start and WHAT to start w. got so many subjects it is just KILLING ME. omggggggggggggggg.

anyway, recently a lot fo things happened to me. like i fell, got terrible terrible cuts on my heels that makes it super difficult for me to walk, i'm like limping everwhere, go sleep also pain, dun dare to put my foot down properly on the bed. :(
but ahhh welllll! i hope i'll be fine by tml, cause tml cell grp day going ZOOOOO :D <3! and i have RED NAILS NOWWW :D <3! haha. and METALLIC PURPLE TOES. hahaha. thanks to0 CHANWEILING. haha. i've been spending a lot of time w her these days, cause i'm home most of the time studying. hahaha. and been listening to 98.7fm more often again. like everytime when i'm studying i cant really stand listening to the same few songs in my touch anymore, like sometimes i need something random. hahaha. and like also this week i've been so happy and so sad too, not to mention worried. and also tired and not to mention DRAINED. like totally, pulled apart and as if like everyone keeps expecting so much out of me. SIGH. and like i think honesty really either breaks or brings people closer right? i mean like, if its not meant to be, den honesty will simply break people apart, cause as corny as it sounds, the truth will definitely hurt. and it'll make or break relationships. lily dao shi told me this: tell the person in a nice and wisdom, out of love, not condemning:) choose right timing, right place, right person to tell :) the kep point is to pray first, may holy spirit tell when is the right time to let the person know, and put words of wisdom into your mouth. and be prepared to face the consequences with the person :) i'm glad i did and i'm glad the outcome was alright :)

anyways, imissyou!
another song i've fallen for :)

We'll Be a Dream - We The Kings ft. Demi Lovato
Do you remember the nights we
Stayed up just laughing.
Smiling for hours at anything
Remember the nights we
drove around crazy in love

When the lights go out
We'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Likes its all we have
To hold onto and we'll be a dream

Do you remember the nights we
made our way dreaming
Hoping of being someone big,
we were so young then,
we were to crazy in love

When the lights go out
we'll be safe and sound
We'll take control of the world
Likes its all we have to hold on to
An we'll be a dream

(whoaaa ooooooooh)

When the lights out
(when the lights go out)
We'll be safe and sound.
(We'll be safe and sound)
Well take control of the world
Like its all we have to hold on to
And we'll be
(And we'll be)

And when the light go out.
(and when the light go out)
We'll be safe and sound,
we'll take control of the world
Like its all we have to hold on to
And we'll be a dream

Wednesday, June 02, 2010

WHY IS THERE SO MUCH SNACKS AT HOME?!?!

yes, why. why is there so much snacks! i'm so fat fat fat nowww! :(
anyway, must mug very hard mannnsss. but cant seem to sit still. hahahahaha. shall try my bestest. please pray for me:(
to be able to concentrate and do QT and study and stop eating so much. hahahahaha.

MY NEW FOUND FAVOURITE SONG:) thanks to CHANWEILING:D <3!

Kissin' You - Miranda Cosgrove
Sparks fly, it's like electricity
I might die when I forget how to breathe
You get closer and there is no where in this world I'd rather be
Time stops like everything around me is frozen
And nothing matters but these
Few moments when you open my mind to things I've never seen

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u

Past loves, they never got really far
Walls of picture I've got in my heart
And I promised I wouldn't do this
Till I knew it was right for me
But no one, no guy that I met before
Could make me feel so right and secure
And have you noticed I lose my focus
And the world around me disappears

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u

I've never felt nothing like this
You're making me open up
No point even trying to fight this
It kinda' feels like it's love

'Cause when I'm kissin' u my senses come alive
Almost like the puzzle piece I've been trying to find
Falls right into place, you're all that it takes
My doubts fade away when I'm kissin' u
When I'm kissin' u it all starts making sense
And all the questions I've been asking in my head
Like are you the one, should I really trust
Crystal clear it becomes when I'm kissin' u