CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Uncertain Love - Horan :)

after watching city hall...
uncertain love by horan is my fav song now!

YES. the last time i blogged was really quite recently and i wanted to blog more. but was being rushed. hahaha.

now with my very sore legs, heavy and dark eyebags and slightly empty stomach-
i am sitting in my uniform blogging!

just practiced this song i'm supposed to sing as solo, but i'm gonna change it to a duet with weien instead! :D
so long never sing duet with him liao, so this time i wanna do it again!
hopefully this time hong lao shi ask us to sing for eng serv too!
cause i feel like performing more! :D

ANYWAYS. i really need sleep, i'm so depriveddd! i feel as if i can like play jackpot with my eyebags lurhh!

oh and yes, if u havent seen fb, i've got this ugly photo IAN TEOH used to create a POKEMON CARD. my weakness is apparently IAN LOW.
FISH?!? WHY FISH?!? =.=
my description is like destroying ppl in my path like ZAI HAO?!? ohh kayy...
MY POWER IS EATING. =.=
MY STATS ARE: ROUND ROUND ROUND.
omggosh larrrr.

oh yar, i also just like came back from heeren. was there with mummy while she was having her company's star mtg thingy.
saw the two main leads of "My Girlfriend is an Agent" hahaha. THE GUY DAMN HOT LARRRH :D the girl just looks a bit tired. haha.
THE GUY WAS DAMN CUTE LARRR! :D

okay, very tired. tml must mug for chinese As MANNN. :// hahaha.

-thankyou for the wonderful day &imissyourhugs!

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

unexpected-

in a nut shell...
promos over. results back. pw and chinese next. and lunnie needs to loose weight baaaddly.

okay.
results were NOT TOO BAD. almost as expected. esp phy la.
i knew i was going to fail it. hahaha.
got like U for it :((
but my midyrs, i gt 50. so in total, i got likr 41% hahahaha. so i still passed phy by 1% meaning i got S for phy.

best sub was math- B! :D
so proud of myself.
chem, i did better than i expected- C or D. cant rmber larrr. hahaha.
followed by my upsetting econ. i thought can at least get D or C. i got E! :(
GP i got E also. SUPER HAPPY. hahahaha.

ohh welllsss.
wanted to blog so many times this week. but was busy and tired. :(
somany things happened!!

i bought tiara for xinhui to wear for her party, bought angel halo for myself!
den had to help her with the party.
den also had fund-raising, or rather start to plan for fund-raising.
and apparently, choir exco needs to sing for thanksgiving.
and i'm in some video too.
lunnie is faatfatfat!!
promo results released.
my earphones the right side, died on me.
op dry-run started, tml my grp's turn.
i found out i can be very very very stubborn and cranky.
i really need to remember in the first place why qt is important. starting to not do everydday again! :(
hong laoshi msged me ask me sing solo for next month.
dunno what to sing, howwww.

okie dokes, i need to go bathe, prac op and sleep. i'm sooo deprived of sleep.
today i left the house, stepped into the lift and scared myself at the darkness of my eyebags!

last but not least, i wanted to pt this 2 vid up long ago!!

-imissyourhugs:)

Saturday, October 24, 2009

i am fat. need to go run more.

grahhh.
flingfabbit chicken nugget meisiam mee sua roti prata!

okay. whatever i typed there doesnt make sense. but it make sense to me. hahaha.
i'm really not hungry!
its just some things in my head and i un wanna type them out. i dunno why but i ended up typing food names and gibberish after a while. HAHAHA.

ANYWAYS. promos gone. i only had like what...? THREE DAYS to REALLY enjoy myself. now like got PW and Chinese. AHH. SCREW CHINESE.

i dunno why my chinese getting WORRSEE :((

okay. this is JUST IN: 10:47am
Lee Xun msged me: Hey guys change meeting time to 2pm
=.= okayyy.. so now what am i gonna do. grahh. always so last minute. ://

nvm, shall not comment.
i guess i have really been kinda grumpy, cranky and all :(
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME? :(

i've been so negative recently. i think its pw stress. all the oral presentation prep coupled with chinese a level prep.

a nice friend told me(and several others):
"wah, no promos u also equally busy"

oh wells, thats huilun's life in a nutshell. apparently i'm always busy. I DUNNO WHY.
&& on a random note, i went to run this morning! finally in a looong time! :)
quite bad la. i usually run 1hr one, today run 45 mins only/ hahahahahaha.
OH WELLS.

i realized sometimes i subconsciously dun tell some ppl i love a lot a lot of things cause of like past experiences. apparently i tell a lot of ppl who arent THAT close to me stuff more than those who are supposedly closer to me. hmm. i regret that. but i dun also. i guess its kinda a good thing? like sometimes i dun really want them to really really know everything. i guess thats one reason why i have so many nice friends. cause i'm pretty open. :)

OH WELLs. i am fat. need to go run more.
oh, and i wanna change blogskin :)

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

ILOVEYOU

i love you and you and you and you! :D
thanks for making my birthday wonderful!

life is so much more exciting without promos.
but it doesnt give me any reason to go church just for the fun of it. :(
so i dun think i will be going to church for fun anytime soon.
so much housework to do.
and i realise without promos(restriction) i tend to stalk people's blogs lesser! HAHAHAHA.

I WANT TO WATCH SO MANY MOVIEEESSS :)
I NEED TO GO RUN SOON :((
I HAVE TO DO THESE THINGS:

clean and pack and tidy my desk
move the toys from the upper cupboards on to the blue table
move the towels and bed sheets to the cupboard in my room
visit grandma soon
make grocery list
re-write housewok schedule (thought i dun think we'll follow it even if we re-plan it)
quickly find out when i can go out with my friends :)
return library books by 10nov :O

oh wells. heee:)
i havent blogged in a while :

SAMAUL SHING, I WILL MISS YOU LOADS.
going to class today and not seeing your orange nike bag was weird :(
i think staying in class during breaks will never be the same either! :((
i wont be able to mess your hair any more :(
and i forgot to give u a hug on monday. :(((((
&&, thank goodness i didnt go to the airport, or i would have cried hearing that u teared! :(((

samaul shing will be missed!!

have been sharing LOADS AND LOADS OF STUFF WITH SHEILAA <3
I MISS TALKING TO DORA&KERIN&PRISSY&CANDICE :(((
i havent been really going to church after school cause need to settle so many things at home :(
like housework, housework and housework.

i realised i don't really just stick to ONE person. i simply have loads of friends and none of them knows EVERYTHING abt me. hahahaha. everyone knows bits and pieces of me instead. haha. oh wells.

PROMOS IS OVER. :D
CHOIR IS NOT STARTING YET :)
SCRIPTS ARE COMING BACK! ://
BIRTHDAY WASN'T AS BAD AS I THOUGHT :)

i had a blast :)
THANKS TO ALL MY CHURCH LOVES, SCHOOL PALS and FAMILY <3

i didnt think vivo can be so pleasent at night! :)

i totally love my new presents! :D THANKS YA'LL
i will keep them all close to me heart :)
but obviously i was very scared when my birthday was nearing. so many bad memories came back and all :((
but i managed to put that aside and tried to enjoy my birthday. AND I DID :D
okayyyy- i shall go read my new library books!!

NIGHT YA'LL

-its so nice to be wrapped in your arms :)

Monday, October 12, 2009

fat on my birthday

i'm like so so so fat now. hahahaha.
i came home today, cooked lunch for me and weiling den ate lunch den SLEPT.

haha. so horrible! but i was SO TIRED :(
like VERYVERYVREY TIRED. HAHAH.

i guess all the strength i had in me to mug after lunch left with the rain.
i woke up one hour later and mugged again.
well since i'm mugging u cant expect me to do housework right?! grahhh.
so she came back with a cake and a "lollipop". not lollipop la- its famous amos cookie pop. ahahaha. BUT ITS ALWAYS LIKE THIS. ON MY BIRTHDAY. scold scold scold. fine la, my bad i didnt see memo thingy. or i saw it and thought i didnt need to read it since u called. sheeeesh.

i really realise over this few days why i dun really look forward to my birthday sometimes. it just makes me feel awlful. i remembering spending a couple birthdays crying can. all the bad memories. grah. oh wells, i guess this really shows when my birthday comes life is still the same for me. i used to think when my birthday comes they will at least NOT SCOLD ME. but ytd night was blahh from my dad and tonight is blah from my mum. WHAT ELSE.

ah boo.
anyways, math was whoo. i hope econs will bee that too. not too bad now i think my promos. EXCLUDING PHYSICS. GAHHH.

lunnie is wondering who will be the first to wish her happy birthday on the official day!
she hopes.... hahahahahahahahaha.

Saturday, October 10, 2009

OPEN THE EYES OF MY HEART LORD <3!

OPEN THE EYES OF MY HEART LORD :D

its been in my head for a while :)

well, many things has been happeneing.
i hope my eyes will be opened to the blessings i'll get from instead of the negatives. ://

ah wells. CANT WAIT FOR PROMOS TO END.

there are honestly SO MANY things i would nlove to blog abt. but it'll be public! HAHAHAHA. oh wells. only sheila knows. hahaha. and minwei? hahaha,

-unprepared for this.

Monday, October 05, 2009

why cant we just go to heaven NOW

why cant we just go heaven now?
den everything will be less painful.
okay, i'm sorry God- i'm here to fulfill whatever u place me here for.
so i will await your timing and fulfill my purpose!
-enlightened :D

oh, and i realise i really get very very emotionally attached to a lot of things.
oay, i always knew it, but i didnt know i was THIS BAD.

okay, bad is not the word, it can good to be emotionaly attached but bad too. toomuch is bad, toolittle and you'll turn into some creepy insensitive freak. at least to me, thats a freak.

how sad is it to be insensitive!

but its bad to be SO sensitive at times like these. LUNNIE NEEDS TO TALK-AND ONLY SHIELAAA WILL UNDERSTAND! hahaha.

i guess the both of us need eac other at this time. haha.
some things are better not discussed. but i kinda told sheila it although i decided not to tell anyone. but oh wells, sheila is after all my childhood friend and sister LITERALLY. :)

this is really what makes friendships last i guess- my longer friends are friends who understand that i cant be there 24/7 and expect s much out of me. iguess thats why i'm not so cliquey either. haha. but i know i like to be in a clique. but i dun wanna get dissappointed. ah, life is so hard.

now my birthday is drawing near, i dunno what to feel.
i'm so gad i get to spend my bday with my new buunch of crazy friends. but will little hiccup change everything once again.

everytime i'm close to being so very veryhappy with my new bunch of friends, there always seem tobe some sad thing that happens, and although i'm not involved, i'm as emotionally attached to the problem as my other friends going through it. WHY. mak my life so sad. but i'm glad to be able to feel like that also.

some of the friedship last after that but turn weak. others just disappear. now that my birthday is approaching, and here comes a hiccup- i start to see history repeating itself; running away from the problems, one by one.

and again i feel as if i'm the only one standing there tryin to pull everything bck tgt. so tiring. i managed to be able to detach myself after somany friendships that went bad :(
and now comes another problem- i may be too emotionally attached to this one this time.

ohno, this is gonna be painful.

new addictioon!
COLBIE CAILLIAT - MAGIC

You've got magic inside your finger tips
It's leaking out all over my skin
Everytime that I get close to you
Your makin me weak with the way you
Look through those eyes

And all I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above
Yeaaaa, oh I need you

I remember the way that you move
Your dancin easily through my dreams
It's hittin me harder and harder with all your smiles
You are crazy gentle in the way you kiss

All I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above

Oh baby I need you
To see me, the way I see you
Lovely, wide awake in
The middle of my dreams

And all I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above

All I see is your face
All I need is your touch
Wake me up with your lips
Come at me from up above
Yeaaaa, oh oh da da da do do do do do
Ahhhhhh, I... I need you

Sunday, October 04, 2009

Where is God?

we do so much in an attempt to make smth better.
i admit, i do that a lot.

we try our best to resolve things in our own hands.
okay we have to do smth to get the ball rolling.

but the most important thing is, do we do this knowing clearly for a fact that this is what God wants me/you to do?

we always say don't take matters into our own hands, but what if no one even does ahat if God told YOU to do smth abt it. YOU will know, u should be clear that God wants u to do smth abt it b4 doing anything else.

isnt that what we as christians should ask ourselves even before we do anything-ANYTHING AT ALL?

cause i'm telling you, if God is not supporting what u do, as in not telling u to do those things den who in the wolrd are u listening to?!
scary arh. later listen to wrong voice.

differentiating who to listen to- now thats difficult.

but so many things happen in your life right, dun u think its a blessing in disguise? maybe its just me, i'm a pretty optimistic person. after the storm i always believe comes a pretty rainbow :)
we have loads to learn from. God gave us SO MANY sources to learn from don't u think?

our friends, our family, the people around you.
they encounter problems and u are there.
surely it isnt coincidence.
i always believed God place different people in my life so i can get the different types of help i need at the moment in time.
like i can actually find someone in which i can talk non-stop, share so much things with but at the end of the day, i don't even know if we are best friends/good friends or just friends. cause i guess, i'm afraid after what happened in the past.
i guess this is why i dun really have like super close friends. like my sister has eileen. haha.
i dun have friends who is tell EVERY SINGLE thing to.
i have friends which i tell BITS AND PIECES of things to.

so for me to be able to find that type of friend which makes me feel vulnerable enough to want to tell h(er/im) everything -means that God placed that friend in my life for me at that moment in time.
cause honestly, i dunno how long our friendship will last after that.
i guess tahts why i cherish a lof of things too. and get all sentimental over small stuff. hee.

well i dunno, i guess helping others-i learn A LOT. & as to why i can see them as lessons God is teaching me, i guess its because i'm very easily grateful for things/people around me. no wonder i'm an easy to satisfy person. haha. :)

but i think i can pick them out as lessons also because i have experienced what does "all the little blessings given by God" really mean. all the small things are REALLY REALYL important. thats what made me who i am today i guess.

oh wells, who ever said being a Christian was easy?! :)

btw! ytd was mooncake festival! so i'm dedicating this song to all who actually reads my blog! haha. with the exception of one of my friends. :) you know who you are- this was dedicated to you first! HAHAHAHA. i think she's so pretty :) and her voice is just. awww. :)

你问我爱你有多深
我爱你有几分
我的情也真
我的爱也真
月亮代表我的心

你问我爱你有多深
我爱你有几分
我的情不移
我的爱不变
月亮代表我的心

轻轻的一个吻
已经打动我的心
深深的一段情
教我思念到如今

你问我爱你有多深
我爱你有几分
你去想一想
你去看一看
月亮代表我的心