CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Friday, January 08, 2010

life given by God

today i received very sad news, of a passign of a friend. :(
sigh. gary will always be remembered.
makes me think of life impact and all, like death is really unexpected, your whole life is really just in God's hands, just anydayor aytime anything could happen.

what do you want to leave behind in this world, what would you want to let your loved ones remember out of you. what can i do to let this world know "she was a living testimony for God" after i die. and also what would happen to the people i leave behind, argh like the 1520 camp. these thoughts that made me cry so badly during the titanic game:(

i cried so much thinking abt all these questions during the titanic game. would they move on? would they forget me. :// i dunno, i cant control that, i would rather they move on fast. haha. i dunno, like if i leave this world i honestly cant tell you how happy i would be, but den again, i dun think i have done enough as a christian. so not yet, well, not my choice to say right? God's. haha.

i thank God everyday that i'm an alien in this world mans.
btw, i have a new planner!
hehe.

my new addictions! :)
both 赞美之泉 songs!
the first one is 真實的悔改, it made me tear:(

second one is 你的爱, lily dao shi taught us this song during the camp :)

i thank God for all the little gifts and difficult trials he put me through:)
i thank God for all the hardships and pain he make me go through, cause honestly without this hardships, we will not know how to see the brighter side:)
&also, sadly i know i wont be able to spend more time w paperboy once school starts, but hey that means every moment will be more special aye? :)

i thank God everyday for you!:)

Wednesday, January 06, 2010

paperlove :)

grace lee mei yan has got a huge influence. haha. on people. haha.

ANYHOO. new yr is here, that means NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONNSSS MANSSS.

i shall now at the spot think of TEN.
1. A levels! mug hard, focus, and surrender to God
2. choirchoirchoir- PRAGUE competition.
3. 1520 revival! -i'm praying for 1520 to cont keeping our spirits! lets not drop it shall we! :(
4. T20- my classmates:) may we all live in harmony for one more yr!
5. currently to buy a planner manss. the yr has begun and i havent bought one :(
6. :) (this is a secret! hahaha.)
7. cell grp: lets have bible study for real!
8. to not get angry as often- BE PATIENCE&OPTIMISTIC&TOLERANT
9. rely on God more and surrender more to God. - i think i've been taking much things into my own hands last yr :(
10. READ THE BIBLE & READ MORE CHRISTIAN BOOKS!! :D

okay, these are at the spot things. i doubt they will be acomplished.
there is just so many things i wanna do.
today after prayer mtg, papa and mummy assked me to start thinking abt what i wanna do after As. meaning uni.
and what if i dun do well and end up having to go poly. i think i'll go australia if thats the case. aiiyarr. i dun like to think abt this part of my future one leh, kanasai, cant believe i have to do this now. :(

anywayss...
choir has started to take a toll on me.
practices never ending, open house next den gear up for entry of J1s, teach them techniques, etc den chiong for march competition.

church camp ovuhh, but choir takes over my priority now. i havent really got time to take a break or rest :( really i havent

it was like choir concert, den church camp prep den church camp den praiseteam den now choir&praiseteam and school work. when sch reopens i'll be like everywhere.
soi really need to rely on God now.

meaning no time for paperboy:(
GRAHH.

anyway. i'm gonna be REAAALL busy&tired. so i need all the prayers i can get. and i need to surrender a lot to God.

plus, today at prayer mtg, i realised maybe last yr has really shown and and taught me i must learn to endure till the end!! the narrow path i want to enter!! and also to rely on God more! :(

God put me through so many things last yr so i can learn more and see the picture in a later part of my life.

oh wells. i miss us!