CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

omg.
i feel awful.
i wld lyk to keep tis personal 1st.
i dunno who i'll tell 1st.
outta the few of them.
i dun even noe i can relate to them anymore.
omg.
am i juz emo or is it the pressure of many other tings adding up.
i feel invisible.
i feel neglected.
i feel hated.
i feel EXTRA.

seriously. isit me?
why am i feeling tis way when i'm arnd all u guys.
all 6 of u.
all of u.
i feel so................... dumb?
actually the reason to why i've not been blogging recently is partly coz of that.

it is in tis situatuation->
i'm happy after a day of fun/or wadeva
i go home.
i serve the net.
i see sumting,
i get depp.
and i dun feel lyk bloggin anymore.

so diff to smile, lauff.
ugh.
plue the ruiqi incident.
God help me.
i'm in depp, anger and dilemma.

why is it that everyting juz has to come ALL at once.
wad did i do..?
life is so.... depp....

i wish all of tis wld stop.
i wish all of tis wld dissipating.
i feel lyk burying myself in deep wallow.
but dun tink it'll help.
i shall remain strong.
i shall ignore all of these..?
i shall..??

wadz more, i'm failing all my tests.
well not fail lar.
below my expectation.
eng- cant rmber.
chi - very low (cant rmber)
chem- dun even rmber if i've taken the test.
bio - 17/30 (i 4got to bring my txbk home)
phy - coming soon..
A ma - 1st test: 1/20 2nd test: coming soon
E ma - 1st test: 11/20 or 25 2nd test: coming soon

and stupid ruiqi.
stupid ruiqi.
stupid ruiqi.

i shall distract myself by studying and concentrating on my tests.

i wanna CRY!!!!

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life.....
haix.

all behaving the same way
all doin the same ting
i tot tis wld never happen TIS time.
not TIS time.
never tot TIS time.
i always tot it'll last longer.
it aint working!!
i wanna scream at the problems stomp on it!
and walk off cursing the bloody problems!
i'm forgotten..??

dear Lord, help me go through tis dilemma. help me find out b4 jumping into other conclusions. help me to be able to actually distract myself 1st. help me to be able to pass thru tis tough situation. help me understand it better next time. help me be able to hold down my anger wth ruiqi. cant help it. she's irritating. but help meto be able to pass thru tis day w/o anymore worries, problems bugging me. help me to mber dat i can always turn to u. help me to rmber dat i hv other ***** and i can tun to them. and they will be patient wth my stupid self and dat i may pay attention in class more often. dat i may learn to cope thru these situations sooner or later. thank you Lord for guidingme thru tis day and yesterday and tomolo. in Jesus's name i pray, Amen.

Saturday, February 24, 2007

WHEE!

i love playing wth the features of my computer recently..
for no good reason.
haha.
juz keep updating firefox and other stuff..

haha.
its juz so fun.
now i've got a player on the bottom of my firesox so dat it wont lag as much as using windows media player. and yar.
i juz gotta choose my own files to be played. hehe.

well..
ive been VERY lazy to blog recently..
well. wad shud i say..

oh yar.
today had choir.
den went to church for chi tuition.
turns out only me and nick went for it..

den bsides DAT...
after tuition, we went to eat lunch wth ming che lao shi.
den went back to church, ming che lao shi went to baifang.
den me and nick went to ofice again.
found jing qian there.
den hanged arnd his room for a while b4 he had to go.
we watched like TONS of super weird super funny videos.
den went to 4th floor when he left to "loiter" there.

nick took out the volleyball and we played. :)
haha.
den after dat i told him why not i try to snatch the ball frm him(he has FULL confidence dat i cant snatch it frm him. hmmp! EGO-MUCH!)
and if i DO get the ball frm him, HE WILL HAFTA DO 50 PUSH-UPS!!
if i don't by 2.30(the time which i hadta leave), I will hafta do 50 push-ups!!

den true enuff..
guess wad happened:
a) I DIDNT! therefore, I did the 50 push-ups. -.-
b) I DID!!! and HE did the 50 push-ups while i lauffed abt it. :D

so..??
wadz ur ans??

QUICK!
TAG AT MY BOARD UR ANS B4 READING SUMMORE!!

HURRY!

2nd CHANCE!!

3rd CHANCE!!
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CHOSEN UR ANS??
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here goes.. the ans.....

b) I DID!!! and HE did the 50 push-ups while i lauffed abt it. :D

hehe.the ans damn obvious rite?
obviously, i cld. :D

anyway..
i've been doin quite well in skool academacilly..
and well. been having fun.

and yep.
life's good.
and well.

i gtg eat dinner in CSC now.

BYE!!
haha.

i dunno when i'll blog again..
but i noe...
BMS FLIRTS!
Reymond is funny. (coze he says i'm funny)
CHOIR RAWKS! (we finished the set-piece!)

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

its been such a FREAKING LONG time since i blogged..

this are wad dat has happened..

#1: SEC3 CAMP!! RAWKS ALL THE WAY!!
#2: (today) xinyi's b'dae!!!
#3: MS LAM TOUCHED ON THE TEXTBK (27/01/07 <--- A MILESTONE!) i tink..

i tink datz abt..
anyway..
SEC3 CAMP WAS SO FUN. :))
we had...:
zipline!(my fav)
rock-climbling!
RAFTING (DAMN FUN)
abseiling!
HIGH ELEMENTS!(climbling super high and walking on a line)
LOW ELEMENTS!! (its all abt teamwork!)
cheering competitions :))
camp-fire night :))
CASSANDRA (the funny one)
Mr Lee (THE BEST TEACHER EVER!)
FAITH 3/2!! (THE MOST CONSTANT & CHEERING CLASS! <-- DECLARED MY MR LEE)

obviously, after the camp, our class is tight. (er)

haha
anyway, frm wad i heard,
the teachers say dat our class was the most consistent class! WHOOHOO!
hehx..

anyway..
upcoming events are..:
CNY perf.
duet perf.

dunno la..
i'm so busy.
plus got SYF.

oh yar..
my sis has a new computer!
so she gave me HERS!
YAY!
datz abt it..
:))