CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Monday, July 02, 2007

okay;; not exactly what i was looking for.
haha. but it was the only skin that looked like what i wanted.

was searching for something music-type.
and kinda christian based.

so i found a pretty skin, and replaced the headings. haha.

oh wells, i like my new skin.

anyhoos, arts nite was a blast.

I LOVED IT.
i'm so gonna miss my seniors.

SIGHs.

all my seniors except one.
my brother.
haha.

anyhoos, today was doing homework day. haha.
i did most of my homework. i think.

haha.

i still wanna say: ARTz NITE ROCKED.

haha.
we sounded better than expected.

i cant believe the seniors are stepping down already.
SIGHS.

went church ytd.
i was HALF-DEAD.

coze after artz nite on fri, i cldnt wait to get to bed.
den on sat, i cldnt wait to close my eyes, let alone go home.

haha.
see, that was how tired i was.

i wont elaborate much.
but we took lots of photos, saw mr huangs gf(apparently, its some big news circulating choir), hugged our seniors, i was called xiao zha boh by ah meow.
hahahaha.

the psg dance, the only thing i liked abt it was the SONG: larger than life by BSB!
WHOOTs.
i'm still madly in love with them.

haha.

havent updated in a while, cause i was busy.
but if i cant update, i'll try to tag.

mummy and papa got a new phone.

my family went to sentosa for dinner on sun nite.
the friggin weather is so bloody hot.

photos of arts nite in fellow choir member's blogs.
i am a performer :D
i like performing :))
saw like so many people there.
haha.
i hall so bloody cold.
Singapore Poly Convention Centre is now a memorable place for me.
hahaha.

choir members all realise we love each other a lot right? haha.
and that we love Ms Loh, Ms Ng and Mr Huang a lot right?
haha.

i suddenly miss all of them, including Ms Joy. ((:
the fate of being to utterly devoted to my CCA - CHOIR.
I'M A PERFORMER!

today i finished most of my hol hw.
and i'm afraid of friday: meet-the-parents-day
GAH.
i'm SO AFRAID.

THANKS HONGLAOSHI for the lovely cushion which i hug every night to sleep!
and THANKS HONGLAOSHI and JUSTINLAOSHI and ERTONGSHIBAN peeps for coming to my perf!
Thanks the people who gave me REAL flowers!
Thanks the PERSON who gave me a FAKE cushioned flower!
Thanks to the people who came to watch GM choir perf!

some things i would like to express:
i shall zi bi for a second;
and i dunno why somebody still dares to call me.
dunno why that somebody actually broke all promises and dare to call me.
dunno why i can finally get that somebody off my mind when that somebody would just strike again. sending my mind into oblivion. just for that second that somebody is talking to me.
dunno why that somebody can call me.
dunno why that somebody is doing this to me.
dunno why that somebody is messing with me.
can i box that somebody?

sometimes, i dunno if i really can make up my mind, the other somebody keeps popping into my head. must be the music i'm listening to.

and is that other other somebody playing with my feelings? we've been friends forEVER.
how can he take me for granted?
how can he take advantage of our friendship?
how can he do this to me?
how can he think that u can buy friendship?
how can he treat me like this?
how can he do this to me?

and the other other other somebody.
she's my lovely friend. yes i agree.
but sometimes, i dunno wad's she's thinking.
its hard to talk to her.
and the otherher.
the both of them.
it just seems to be getting harder and harder to talk to them.
it just seems like very hard to approach them.
do you care?

he tells me he cares, he tells me he's always there for me.
is he?
rubbish shittified pig. he's the numba one asshole.

they tell me tey care.
when i apprach them, they tell me shit stuff.
walau.
i wont approach them no-more.

he's a pain in the ass.
they're un trustworthy people.

and i'm apparently drifting further and further from the friends i love.

some people say we're tight.
i doubt so.

he calls me, he doesnt.
he msges me; he doesnt.
he tells me he cares; he doesnt
he tries to care' he cant
he likes me; he annoys me
he cant keep his promise; i shall not keep mine
he makes me feel like a spare tyre; i'll make him non-existent in my life
he can stop it now. PLEASE.
you are confusing me.
you are irritating me.
you are making me wonder.
you are a pain in the neck.
you are wasting my life.
GET OUT OF IT.

okay.
i'm done emo-ing.
whatever i've said up there, is my life. this is only the brim of my complicated life.

so i shall pray.