CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

can i make a statement?
i shall.
relationships (SOCIAL) are difficult to comprehend.
sometimes, friends dont seem to be who they are.
if so, just close one eye.
why bother trying so hard to find out why is she/he behaving this way.
go think from their point of view.
and instead of asking WHY are they behaving this way.
ask... u know what, don't EVEN ask.
just live with it.
its not like u can change a friend. can u?
unless u are in some kind of a movie and u are a super influential person.
and all the girls wear pink dresses and the guys-tux.
u so happen to be the princess or queen and u have everyone agreeing and listening to YOUR opinion or point of view.

thats the negative of fairy-tales.
haha.
so as growing, maturing brats, (if i would say so myself) like me and you, we should try not to live in the world where everybody listens to ur opinion and moves to groove your way.
after going through so much friendship problem since pri school, the stupid thing cant seem to leave me. there seems to be some kind of curse.

like my close friends will eventually leave me and betray me or just give me the COLD COLD shoulder.
i rather they leave/betray den gimme the cold shoulder.
the cold shoulder is so much worse.

anyways. if u cant understand or rather cant get onto the same wavelength as the other person, dont create war cause u dun understand why he/she is behaving like that.
but try to close one eye. or if u really want the friendship to work out? aka salvaging it, be humble to him/her, just play the listener/obeyer/inferior.
let him//her be the superior for a while and see where is he/she actually heading.
i mean there are many many ways.
but so far these are the few that worked for me.
hahaha

oh well, i would gladly rant the the clock is ticking.haha

there is this misconception that as long as u are hard working u are SMART.
well, hello there, i am not smart.
but i hear i'm hardworking.

stop saying i'm smart lar will ya.
i know i'm dumb and i know i'm slow. if u keep saying i'm smart, i'm flattered. i really am. but sometimes, this gotta stop.

its as if, i'm either some kind of HUGE competition or i'm some self-centered, self-whatever person that PRETENDS to be stupid.
grahh.

stop it.
like seriously.

if u are able to label me pretentious, u yourself is pretentious.
sheesh!
pot calling a kettle black!

God gave me a limited intelligence.
i'm so far fine with that, cause i managed to accept the fact and live life as it is.
if u keep teeing me i can extend that level of intelligence, i must be a GENIUS!

apparently, i'm not. so stop it.

grahhhhhhhh.

Friday, May 23, 2008

my dear girl,

life is full of ups and downs, its like driving on a never ending road.
its hot and stuffy out there, but in your car, u feel secure and very safe, then there tends to be bumps on the road and all, there are just minor trips. u wont crash or anything.
but when it comes to a major bump, like such which u are going through, gossips, politics,etc..
u may crash and it may lead to a road accident, clean off the dust, shrug it off, pick yourself up and continue with your road.
the accident may rob u of your ride, but not you legs.
walk, hop, run if u want to.

smile my dear, at the troubles u encounter and carry on.
there will be your friends and family to help you through.
some things are better confided to your friends. and you have us,
if u really feel like the place aint for u, just pull through, its the final lap, one more year.
dun wallow with deep sorrow and regret or fall into depression just cause they managed to succeed in slowing you down.

the 2 people that i now u talked to me about.
they too are under pressure, u dunt know what is going through them, leave them alone.
u may wanna find out what's bothering them but they might understand that.

but your friends might not.
turn to their angle.
let your friends call u a "traitor" cause at the end, u'll not only find out what's bothering them u might even clear the doubts and pain within that place.
i would gladly help u be your negotiator or smth.
but u have to have lots of patience and keep the rest of the board off their backs in temr sof gossips and all.
they are very troubled. very.
i just spoke to them today.
haha.

so my dear, don't be emo okay?
not good. hahaa
u know sometimes, they don't know that their actions will result in this outcome whereby everybody isnt satisfied. this is what happens in society.
they are unaware of their surroundings cause they are "powerpeople" (you may call them)
but because of that fact, they are stressed troubled.
as (not really to say a close friend) just be there for them if they come to u to confide, if not just smile and try to get over with it.

continue to be friends. not colleagues.
the head will once u gain her fullest trust but the other wont.
cause the other only confides in either me or someone else.
haha.

they are both difficult to trust others.
so they require more time.
okay?

dun emo emo lar.
haha.
at the most u sing some of our choir songs la.
haha.
okay? LOVES!!

anyways. i stumbled upon a real nice song. and i love it.
thankyou 987fm!
hahaha

Secondhand Serenade - Fall For You

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you i'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may of failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breathe
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cuz talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When your asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I wont live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Your impossible to find

i'm now waiting for my dad to get ready so that we can head off to school.
today is t-shirt day.

i can wear coloured ankle socks!
i was putting on my socks when i realized somthing.
i've been wearing my rainbow socks to school every friday.
or my purple socks.

correction! my coloured ankle-TOE socks.
hahah

den a thought hit me, what if we could wear coloured socks to school all the tme, i'll probably wear the emotions or feelings i have on that day on my toes,
no one can see it can they?
haha
no one actually wonders if there's a link to the colour of your socks and you feeling for that day.

actually i realized that when i wear my normal socks, on the day, i'll be tired, sleepy.
but when i wear my rainbow socks i'm up and down. hahahahaha.

havent exactly thought about it till today.
i'm such a WEIRDO RIGHT?
nothing to do think about my socks.
cause its so PRETTY!

haha. so i guess, this doesnt really make sense cause i'm just crapping, waiting for time to pass.
lesson learnt: i'm rather lame when i'm bored.
haha

Thursday, May 22, 2008

dilemma. dilemma.
hmm.

i'm like thinking about going ACJC or CJC.
much as i would love to go AC.
cause it is a great school and all, CJ is so much so much closer to my house.
ACJC is like the other end of the island. like it'll take me 1hr+ to go there.
so if i go there i have to leave home at about 6:00am to about 6:10am liddat.
den if its CJ, i can leave at 6:30.
not much difference hur.
in terms of waking up.

haha.
but in terms of CCA, AC's choir is WAY better.
hahaha

oh wells,
i'll just try out lar.
if i dun make it i'll go CJ.
hahaha

chinese O's are coming up soon, my chinese grades ihas been.. well.. hmm..
hahaha
and well, i hope i do well! hahaha

at the most if i dun pass chinese, i go poly?
haha. i dun think i'll fail worst than a D7 for chinese lar.
hahahahaha
IF i fail.
hahaha.
and yes people, i've relinked u finally.
happy belated birthday CHARMAINE! ^^
and happy early birthday WANYING! hahaha

oh wells, off i go to bathe, change, mug. hahaha

Monday, May 12, 2008

hahahahahahahahaha.
i wanna laugh.
i'm thinking of the phantom of the opera the song:
"Poor Fool He Makes Me Laugh"
however, its not a fool that i'm laughing at, rather at my exams!

tml is the last day of exams! WHOOTS!

haha.

i also wanna thank arilyn who so kindly provided me with this wonderful few songs that are superbly soothing to the ears
hahaha.

i'm thinking of a lot of songs. hahaha.
phantom of the opera songs, christian songs and soothing ones.apparently, the other songs that i kinda like that are more inclined towards the pop industry isnt there.

haha.
i'm just being utterly inane.
i have nothing to do, i refuse to study for bio MCQ, i've done enough practice.
my only week to relax is here. and i have to start consistent mugging again. T.T

owells, enjoy!
and and! the church gonna have a retro fever!
cant wait
this sunday! whoots!
i cant wait~~

haha. i like invited cal and gonna invite simin too.
den we can all retro retro together! YAY!
haha.

haha. i happen to come across this photo cause i'm using my sister's laptop. hahaha.
HELLO GARETH. THIS SEGMENT IS SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO YOU!

haha. and i found this scandalous photo!

haha and here's aaron during i dunno when when we were mugging maths in church. haha

and this is aaron playing mahjong on shijia's handphone!
which reminds me of the scandalous photo we saw in aron's handphone!
HILARIOUS!

haha.
oh wells.
conflicts are better accepted by me now, cause after GDOP, i feel like a better christian!
haha.
ohwells, God bless me.
haha.
and the nation!
haha.

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

HELLO.
HUILUN IS BEING UTTERLY LAME.
SO SHE SHALL BLOG.

ohmys!
bio paper over and done with. haha
well i have so little faith in it though.
haha

first time in my life i read through the textbook instead of studying it. how insecure.
haha

tml is emath paper.
haha.
oh wells.
tuition is in what.. half an hour.
haha

i've like got nothing to do. so i'm blogging cause i refuse to mug today.
well maybe later i mug physics
haha

haha.
all the papers so far were okay..
haha

ohwells.
off to eat dinner and i shall go tuition.

come'on girl, tell me your woes.
i dunno why you are treating her so coldly.
i really wish things were back to normal.
ever since, you've been rather scary..(to me)
i dunno if thats gonna happen to me too?
but i really want you guys to work out.
i want us to return to the way we were before.
GRAHHHH.
if only life was that simple.