CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Thursday, August 21, 2008

haha. because a certain some one told me to update!

haha.
well, tue was my BELOVED mummy's! birthday!
i couldnt give her anth, with such pressing times and all, so i gave her my math test resuts!
haha. i like got like 66/70 or 75. cant rmber, but i know score very high, higher den i expected can liao, den i give her see. haha.

anyways, besides that, today no PE. :(
and well. the STUPID PIG SPAT WATER ON ME.
now i fear i'll get face infection or somesort.
haha.

but its okay, I FORGIVE YOU LIANG QUAN.
haha.
oh wells, boys will be boys.
my new seating arrangement, is stupid yet so utterly fun. yet so utterly disturbing. and yet so utterly friendly.

like i'm away from all the female dog-eat-dog world and entered a more hey-dude-lets-help-one-another-out zone.
hahaha.

i have to admit, the class boys are very funny and very willing to help, i just need to ask.
haha.

BUT! they are childish, thats a fact, but thats what makes them so indifferent!
haha.

oh wells, they will grow up someday, go NS and date, get married and still behave childishly.
haha.

i can still see that in many older men, example, my dad, some church friends parents, etc.
haha.
but life wouldnt be as interesting without that touch and spark of childishness,
haha.

anyways, i'm like at a lost, and i shall pray for a fellow friend. and i dunno what to do, but pray.
at times like these, i can really only pray.
haha.

OHHOHH!! and zan mei zi quan's new song! wo men de ai neng gai bian shi jie.
its SO SO SO nice.
haha
wanted to share it with somebody, but i guess, i dunno if it'll be appropriate anymore, just gotta wait and leave everything in God's Hands.
haha.

life can be much sweeter if only i have the willpower to continue making it seem that way. but unfortunately, i'm tired and weared out, and the only person i can go to is God and i'm so tired of trying to cheer people up, trying to lighten certain moods, putting my shoes in theirs, stooping down to their level, their thinking, their perception,etc. that i dunno if this continues, my patience would run dry, i would lose this cheerful side of me and be some retarded emo-kid.

I NEED GOD!

i stumbled upon these:

The mythical good Christian tries to act like a mature believer but is really a child at heart because his life revolves around "what feels good for me." He fails to accept responsibility for the maturity of others in the church

Jesus said, "For the Son of Man came to seek and to save what was lost." (Luke 19:10 NIV) Lost people matter to good Christians.

As the message of Jesus power to save and change lives spreads, society responds in positive right ways. Close the church and muffle it's voice and a dead, hopeless society emerges where evil men take control.

Beware of the trap of creating our own definitions. A popular exercise today is to create definitions based on our feelings. Jesus is the best person to define a good Christian because He started the Christian church. The term Christian was first used at Antioch "The disciples were called Christians first at Antioch." (Acts 11:26 NIV)

and i found this rather interesting:

THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN STRENGTH AND COURAGE

It takes strength to be firm.
It takes courage to be gentle.

It takes strength to stand guard.
It takes courage to let down your guard.

It takes strength to conquer.
It takes courage to surrender.

It takes strength to be certain.
It takes courage to have doubt.

It takes strength to fit in.
It takes courage to stand out.

It takes strength to feel a friend's pain.
It takes courage to feel your own pain.

It takes strength to hide feelings.
It takes courage to show them.

It takes strength to endure abuse.
It takes courage to stop it.

It takes strength to stand alone.
It takes courage to lean on another.

It takes strength to love.
It takes courage to be loved.

It takes strength to survive.
It takes courage to live.

Written by: Tommy S. West

haha.
but are we really all that good christians?
i mean, we define it ourselves and all, can we really be good christians?
we can!
of course we can! its just the matter of whether or not u decide to surrender to God aint it?

you have a life flourished, blessed by God, so u can make decisions, decisions u can never really comprehend at times. and one of them is to surrender totally to him and let him work you. we should just lay it in God's hands for him to mould us and change us to his image or rather the way in which he wants us to be.

so basically, its all about whether u want to surrender your life totally to God, no questions asked. i have! :D

Monday, August 11, 2008

HAHA.
maylaysia, geography excursion.
haha.

me and sheryl.
haha.
oh mys, i look retarded.
haha/

THIS PHOTO IS NOT PHOTO-SHOPED!
but it looks nice right, haha, this was our FIRST cell group outing manze!
haha. this is the only nice photo with me okay, the rest i looked to toot.

haha!
this was what happened on sunday^^

oh wells, this morning, i woke up and found pimples on my face, i guess its GIDEON'S OILY HANDS!

haha.
&&!

STEPHEN TONG RALLY COMING!
i'm so gonna ask my friends! ^^

random photos of me and xinyi long time ago! haha!

SIGNING OUT, LOVE ME

ILOVEYIZHENtoo!

Saturday, August 09, 2008

haha. i wanna change my blogskin.
haha.
i need to find one 1st.

however!
no time.
need to mug.
haha.

anways, my brother recently downloaded ancient maple and i'm like hooked.
dang.
wrong timing can. T.T

BUT! i can control myself thank goodness.
i'm like a level 150 Bishop liao!
whoots!
haha

still using my old name Lothian.
haha.
ohwells,

i have to mug.

PRELIMS ARE COMING.
PANIC PANIC!

haha.
and and!

today went for the Worship Seminar.
it was good man. very.

haha.
well, i feel we complain about stuff a bit too much don'cha think?
haha.

like we are never satisfied.
but we always gotta bear in mind WHO are we doing this for, all the prep for service, all the praise team prep, all the costructive criticism
from others, we should just accept, digest(or not) and try to satisfy the needs of OTHERS instead of ourselves.
haha.

if not, we'll be the same like anyone else, self-centered.
where actually, we as christians(disciples of God) should be satisfying the needs of others instead! haha.

ohwells, gotta go mug liao.
hahas!

HUILUN HAS TO MUG!

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

can you please tell me if there is smth wrong?
this is utterly odd.
i dunno why but it just is, i cant seem to place my finger, pin-point this utterly inane and stupid feeling.

its stupid, it really is, all those fairytales in primary seemed to come true in sec sch, however there seems to be so much to carry along, so much baggage to handle, so confusing everything.

i'm a bloody novice at this, unsure, uncertain.
i used to be able to predict and read ppl so well, what happened?

this is like some kind of emo post but i dunno why.
please stop looking at me with those eyes, why cant i read u when u are okay.
i can only read u when u seem to have smth against me.
every look is like some kind of a pierce.

can u just. grahhh.
i dunno
u know what, i give up, trying to lighten the mood at times,
i'm not huilun-the pro social butterfly.
even pro socialist get tired.

dun make me feel like crying, cause i cry easily.
i cry but no one knows,

dun make me feel awful cause u are.
den make this an unhappy thing.

i feel like i'm solving a problem and suppressing another,
i cant block myself from all the world and all.
i cant block myself frm esp the coldness u bring.

stop it.
just give all of us a break.

but however, i think u're just doing this to me.

cry cry cry.
i'm so useless.

grahh.

GOD HELP ME. HELP ME TO STOP FEELING SO USELESS.