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God's Girl
Huilun
13.10.1992
Singapore Life Church
GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU





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Tuesday, August 05, 2008

can you please tell me if there is smth wrong?
this is utterly odd.
i dunno why but it just is, i cant seem to place my finger, pin-point this utterly inane and stupid feeling.

its stupid, it really is, all those fairytales in primary seemed to come true in sec sch, however there seems to be so much to carry along, so much baggage to handle, so confusing everything.

i'm a bloody novice at this, unsure, uncertain.
i used to be able to predict and read ppl so well, what happened?

this is like some kind of emo post but i dunno why.
please stop looking at me with those eyes, why cant i read u when u are okay.
i can only read u when u seem to have smth against me.
every look is like some kind of a pierce.

can u just. grahhh.
i dunno
u know what, i give up, trying to lighten the mood at times,
i'm not huilun-the pro social butterfly.
even pro socialist get tired.

dun make me feel like crying, cause i cry easily.
i cry but no one knows,

dun make me feel awful cause u are.
den make this an unhappy thing.

i feel like i'm solving a problem and suppressing another,
i cant block myself from all the world and all.
i cant block myself frm esp the coldness u bring.

stop it.
just give all of us a break.

but however, i think u're just doing this to me.

cry cry cry.
i'm so useless.

grahh.

GOD HELP ME. HELP ME TO STOP FEELING SO USELESS.