CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

i can only imagine//lifeIMPACT!

Matthew 16:24-28
24Then Jesus said to the disciples:" If anyone wants to be my follower, he must put aside his selfish ambitions, shoulder his cross and follow me. 25If you try to keep your life for yourself, you will lose it. But if you give your life to me, you will find true life. 26And how do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul in the process? Is anything worth more than your soul? 27 For I, the Son of Man, will come in the glory of my Father with his angels and will judge all people according to their deeds. 28 And I assure you that some of you standing here right now will not die before you see me, the Son of Man, coming in my Kingdom."

haha, like what i did in 1520 blog, i shall start with this video: tribute to rick hoyt.

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

[Chorus:]
Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in awe of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
And I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

[Chorus]

I can only imagine [x2]

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

I can only imagine

yes, indeed i can only imagine, imagine how it is to be incapable of doing anything, imagine how it is to feel as if i have been rejected by what i created, imagine how painful it is to see my one and only son suffer, imagine so much. how will i dare say that i understand? i will never be able to fathom your love, your unending mercy and faith in us. :)

the lyrics are so touching isnt it? i really hope i can do what the chorus says.
surrounded by his glory, standing in his presence, singing hallelujah. and maybe his glory will be so overpowering that i have to fall to my knees, that i have to cry because i cant rejoice anymore, and not speak cause words a lone cannot describe his love for us.

this camp has really made me feel that i can do much more for God but how? it has also made me want to reach out more of my friends cause of how the ending of the game for me made me feel as if i was one of my friends who never heard of Jesus and then game ended just like that for them. but this time, it wont be just a game, it will be more than a game. it will be real, it will break my heart, it will break theirs as well. i cant expose anything that happened during the camp cause it was too great to explain and we arent allowed, cause it'll spoil the game. but it was just so wonderful. i did not regret not going finland, cause if i did, i wont know so many new friends.

this camp also made me realise that God really wants us to be one big family cause he brought us tgt, different service and different church in the camp. inter grating us to bond, and feel so much more like a family now. like how so many of the girls in my dorm were supposed to be somewhere else, but cause of swine flu, their trips got canceled and they were in the same room as me. haha. which is so totally cool :) if God can bring us all tgt just like that there is no wondering how much MORE he can do. isnt it scary yet so wonderful?

this camp also reminded me not to hold on to the materialistic things of this world, cause really when we leave this world, we bring nothing with us, except our souls. i was so sad that i couldnt fulfill what God wanted me to do in the game, i managed to do what I wanted, managed to get married like i wanted, managed to manage my business not too well, managed to bank in money, managed to pay my taxes and bills, meet my daily requirements. but i forgot one thing i had in the real world, i had church, i had a God i could serve, and i missed out the most important thing, when i served God sure it was tiring and tough, but i enjoyed it, i enjoyed the ending of it, after finish serving that aspect. it makes me so happy that i wanna go ahead and serve him again in my best capacity. :)

i really miss peacehaven :( like so much memories and moths. haha.
anyways, enough of my lessons learnt, what happened there was just unforgettable.
okay, i dunno why i cant upload my hpotos :( all in fb la. haha.

anyways, 1st day:
bus ride was killer, after it i had an acheing back and i felt like a grandpa.
when we reached i was so tired. haha. but i played sims3 on my phone, courtesy of kerin. haha.
den we started lifegame immediately, started with the immigration screening, it was so peculiar. haha.
den we went straight into the game after that. met my dorm mates and went absolutely nuts with miwie, yizhen, kerin and candice.

2nd day:
cont with life game, so many unexpected things happened on the 2nd day. ended the day by talking into the night with abundant life ministries girls. haha, lydia, debra, bernice, jun may, valerie. haha.

3rd day:
cont with game, VERY UNEXPECTED HAPPENED, and i got "married" to ziyi, after 3 cycles, which totally took my life away. i was like marriage background for like EVER. haha.
den after that cried a little here and there. i was controlling my tears so much. hahaha. den night came and we went crazy, I DIDNT NOT SLEEP, i repeat not a wink. haha.
the night i can blog abt it. haha.

so last night of camp, as usual, did not sleep. at 1st went downstairs with yizhen, minwei, candice and the guys. cause wanted to play captian's ball in the dark. but couldnt cause too dark and the ball lend to ABLM people. den went to sit in the cool cool night outside, the bench there. so cold. haha. sat there with weijing, watched the stars. and i felt as if Angels were looking down over me. i felt so overwhelmed by God's creation. haha. den after like what seemed forever, me and weijing went back into the building den sat down and he went to play cards, i went to talk to weifu, minwei, cheryl, xinhui.

den after that i wanted to clip my hair up, so i went upstairs, was interrupted by kerin and shiying on the way up, so stopped and talked to them. well not exactly, they were making fun of me as usual.
den after that marissa asked me to play asshole taiti with eng serv ppl, so i decided to sit down and play with them. haha. then i realised what a bunch of crazy friends i just made! hahaha. we played taiti, den ziyi was like the ultimate asshole taiti king and gabriel and zihow took turns to lose. HAHAHA. so funny. i was so happy, for once i didnt become the asshole. hahaha.

den after that they ran out of things to paly, i kept suggesting we paly pepsi cola, but they keep ignoring my request. den after that we palyed truth or dare. haha. gabriel did the run across the girl's dorm shouting hurrah and he went into my dorm and said: "rise and shine" hahaha. den zihow woke candice up to say i love you. HAHA! dne marissa shake candice until she woke up den said: h sry, wrong person". hahaha. so mean, while they were doing that i was saying we shouldnt disturb sleeping ppl, and obviously they ignored my request again. :(

DEN, finally gabriel and ziyi said okay to play with me pepsi cola, i was so happy! :) yay! :)
i've been wanting to play it for so long. hahahaha :)
1st round i won! :)
den we went back and sat down and palyed heart attack. haha. zihow was so funny, he was so slow. haha.
den after that we played pepsi cola again, this time more ppl. haha. we played a few rounds, and i lost all :( always left with kerin, ziyi and one more person. hahaha.
den ziyi decided to do cartwheel and call it ONE STEP, i was so shocked, but i pretended not to be shocked. hahahaha. i dun even know why i did that. haha.

DEN, everybody decided they were tired, and sat around the table, so i sat with grace and ziyi and we talked, cause the other table was full. den i talk to grace for like a while, den grace left, so i talked to ziyi for a while also, den b4 you knew it it was 630am already. :(
so fast. haha. but i felt as if we were talking for more than that amount of time, casue it was like, i in a while never talk to someone like abt the things going through my head, so when i was tlaking to ziyi, it was like lifting 1 quarter of my load from my chest. felt so much better after that. haha. so thanks a lot ziyi :)

den next day came, packed, moved out of the dorm, sulked. cause i realised we're going back to Singapore, where all my problems lie waiting for me to solve. :(

went to awana for combine church gathering. took the biggest photo ever and went KL to shop. wah sei the place reminded me of paragon lar. cannot shop one, just go there and window shop and mke myself feel poor. hahaha.
den after that went straight back to singapore, can imagine lar, i slept almost the whole way. and also when we were in awana for combined church service, i slept EVERYTIME they prayed. hahahaha. so tired. haha.

den ytd, i had to wake up early, go CJ for choir. so very tired. and today i went to church to mug with zihow. haha. we took photos of our nanos :) hahahaha. ah wells, its late. i shall go sleep now then :)

toodles;; GOD LOVES US ALL :)
-i can only imagine.