CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Thursday, November 19, 2009

beneath that facade

"Life's a box of chocolates, Forrest. You never know what you're gonna get."
watched forrest gump the other day! fell in love with it all over again! :)

esp the part when forrest sat in front of the tv with his son after meeting him for the first time. den they both cocked their heads to the side, at the same angel and direction! so touching. haha.

oh wells, things has been really. WOW. God just never seems to be resting in teaching me things. i just lost a friend, weiloon. i'm so upset. but glad that the end of his pain and suffering on Earth is gone! he battled leukemia for a year now and H1N1 must have taken a toil on him. :(

gonna miss him. but glad to know he is a christian! :) God bless his family that they may also come to know Christ (cause i dunno if they are christians too). weiloon always looked so happy, you'll never expect him to be feeling so much pain, when i think he is. teared at the funeral. :(

guess, you'll never know whats really behind that facade of his.

anyways! i want to blog abt two songs today!

firstly, its that "miss halfway" mood again. i dun exactly know what mood that is, but i always feel this song fits me best at this mood. haha. oh wells. i wanted to blog last night. but i couldnt.

somehow i think things arent really going well.

liyin told me: LUNLUN, you must believe in yourself!

today, a few people such as bridget, lionel, cat and clara all told me i looked tired today. i mean no reason not to. with fundraising around the corner, concert coming, and not to forget that thing i rather think about.

bridget even said i looked like i just cried finish! lol. i never had that look before. haha. i thought i looked very normal today actually. just tired.

i wish i had more confidence in myself and higher self-esteem like bridget. i never liked the way i am or behaved. but i cant control it.

i guess i'm in th mood for miss halfway casue its that time of the year when i feel like something is pulling me back. like someone is saying: "HEY! huilun is gonna be happy, quick! lets stop her!"

okay, call me crazy or someone who has watched a little too much drama. but it really feels that way, I'M NOT KIDDING.

the other song that's been on my mind, is stolen! :)

i really love this song. cause the guys voice is SO NICE :) MELT MELT :)

Miss Halfway
You oughta hear the mirror in my house
You oughta fear her pretty, pretty mouth
Says I’m imperfect in every way:
“Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway”

All my friends in L.A. got jobs on Melrose Place
I play Replacements songs and sigh-- a Waitress In The Sky
You oughta hear the things I’ve been thinking
You oughta swim in a heart that is sinking
You try to break me with all the things you say:
“Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway”
Tony makes 60 K, invests in IRA’s,
But I’m busy making paper airplanes out of resumes

But I’m gonna burn, I’m gonna shine and multiply
I’m gonna fill up the great divide
You’ll never break me with all the things you say
“Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway”
I’m gonna burn a pie now and then
And I’m gonna say the wrong things to your friends
I’m gonna burn and shine and multiply
And when I do, you’re gonna see me in her eyes…

I’m gonna burn and shine and multiply
I’m gonna fill up the great divide
You’ll never break me with all the things you say
Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway
Miss Almost, Miss Maybe, Miss Halfway
Miss Halfway, Miss Halfway, Miss Halfway …

Stolen - Dashboard Confessional
We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grand farewells
Crash the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in your highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

maybe i should have just said no, then we both wont be in this dilemma. yes, break it into two. but now it'll break into a million pieces. ain't that worst? its all my fault. never knew i would actually tear abt it. but i did! i kinda felt sad abt the whole issue. or rather guilty. cause i know its kinda because of me? nah, it is because of me. that things are so confusing.

:(

&yes liyin, i totally have no faith in myself. no faith that i'll be able to keep this for long. no faith that it'll last. but faith that the world will move on without me. i'm a drag ain't i.

well, i've decided if the world wants to move without me, i'll just live and accept it. sure it'll be lke totally grahh. but at least i'm being realistic am i?

i also realized they are quite hard to fall these days, but they still fell.