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 聖靈啊，求你來，我軟弱你明白，我無言你歎息，親自為我代求；

你鑒察我的心，使我走在屬神旨意，你醫治我的靈，使我生命再次絢麗。

啊，我心不住讚美，啊，我靈不住稱謝，

一宿雖有哭泣，早晨必歡呼，主的恩典是一生之久；

啊，我心不住讚美，啊，我靈不住稱謝，

一宿雖有哭泣，早晨必歡呼，主的恩典乃是一生之久。

I am happy. really happy. with God i am. I am so filled with his grace. now i can start asking God to prepare me all over again. asking God to teach me and to show me his ways all over again.

New beginnings? Amen! I am joyful from the bottom of my heart. because i know that God has beautiful and wonderful plans for me. somehow i cant stop thinking of that. and also the God will never give me anything too big for me to handle. So, why then should i fear anything God has in plan for me? why should i fear the trials or temptations or situations he places me in. today as i recall my QT from last night and from the lessons i learnt in bible study, i realized i shouldnt fear what God has put before me and face it head on, because he has well equipped me with people who care for me and for you. he has placed people and strength in the fellowship around me. even non-christians, fallen christians. i cannot stop thinking abt God's wonders and i can rejoice. really rejoice.

ironically, in the midst of the haze he provided much clarity and he cleared the skies for me. this morning when i woke up, i had a even stronger determination to fight and show God how much i am thankful for.

Thank God for his sovereignty and his power and authority. Thank you God for looking out for me and giving me so many things i can be thankful for. Thank you God for letting on this journey of self-discovery and of learning to lean on him. I really dont know how to explain to my non-christian friends how fast i grow and change my mindset. sure, at nights i may spiral. but thanks to a close and kind and caring friend i feel stronger, safer and more secure in God and his plans. i really cannot explain it, it is really a joy and peace that comes from God. so, THANKYOUGOD. ILOVEYOU.

i will place my trust and my faith in your unfailing, undying and unconditional love:) which brings me to want to share abt this love. this love from God is really amazing because it was a gift. a gift that was so precious and so hard to comprehend. usually when we talk abt gifts from God we always talk abt spiritual gifts, abilities and talents but i learnt in this period of time that it extends to much more and when you open your eyes to see how far it extends to like i did, i hope you cry like a baby like i did. like seriously. why would someone go to the extend to give salvation and the holy spirit and even his OWN son's life for me? and to me the most amazing thing is that this love these things i mentioned above are all GIFTS. 

i mean think abt it, a gift is smth given freely and on top of that, God gave us these gifts only because we allowed him into our hearts and allowed him into our lives. we are still allowed to reject it. so yup. all these things are blessings from above. like i feel that this thing i'm going through really just helping me to see God more and to really learn what is fully relying in God and REALLY putting him as my center :) 

so, thank you Father for loving me despite all my sins, shamefulness, ugliness and fatness and everything that is unhealthy that i do. thank you for giving me the privilege to learn what is your love so early in my life, early as in like since i was a child, thank you for singapore life church, for my family and for the fellowship and friends you surround me with and lastly for the leaders, preachers and teachers in my life. and also thank you for your forgiveness, your bigbigbig unfathomable heart and love:)

thank you Father, thank you Jesus, thank you Holy Spirit, thank you the ruler and protector of my heart, thank you friend :)