CHRIST THE LORD;;my saviour

Saturday, June 08, 2013

♡That little PEACE☮ from ✞

I am sorry. really. i overstepped boundaries again. I really was just trying to be closer to feel closer:/ I shouldn't have. Cause suppose to give space. Space I promised. Dear Lord teach me peace.

Well I did it again. Shit me:/

I got impatient and did things without praying. Well in my defence it was an impulsive reaction and attempt to reach out and feel closer to you. Omggxxxxzzzz I SUCK SO BAD:/ I'm sorry God and I'm sorry z.

Sigh. I am such an impatient girl:( but after yesterday's crying and briefing episode to God I really feel that I can be patient with this peace so.. NOT TO WORRY. i am back on track with waiting patiently. I am not NOT okay with it. I am absolutely okay with it. Cause I know when you are ready, God is gonna reveal his direction to me. Maybe not to what I want but as long as it is to what He wills..

All in all, i just really really miss you. a lot. every day. I will see how it goes... God will be with me..

So... I just did my QT. these were the verses that touched me..

Job 23:2-6, 10-17 “I am still complaining today.I groan because God is still making me suffer. I wish I knew where to find him.I wish I knew how to go to where he lives. I would present my case to him.I would make my arguments to show that I am innocent. He could give his response, and I would understand.I would listen closely to what he says. Would God use his power against me?No, he would listen to me! But God knows me.He is testing me and will see that I am as pure as gold. I have always lived the way God wants.I have never stopped following him. I always obey his commands.I love the words from his mouth more than I love my food. “But God never changes,and who can stand against him?He does anything he wants. He will do to me what he planned,and he has many other plans for me. That is why I am terrified to stand before him.Just thinking about it makes me afraid. The fear of God has made me lose my courage.God All-Powerful makes me afraid. What has happened to me is like a dark cloud over my face.But the darkness will not keep me quiet.

Job 25:3-6 No one can count his stars.His sun rises on all people. How can anyone claim to be right before God?No human being can really be pure. In God’s eyes even the moon is not pure and bright;even the stars are not pure. People are much less pure.They are like maggots, as worthless as worms!”

Job 28:12-13, 17-18, 20-28 “But where can anyone find wisdom?Where can we get understanding? People don’t know where wisdom is.It cannot be found by anyone on earth. Wisdom is worth more than gold or crystal.It cannot be bought with expensive jewels set in gold. It is far more valuable than coral and jasper,more precious than rubies. “So where does wisdom come from?Where can we find understanding? Wisdom is hidden from every living thing on earth.Even birds in the sky cannot see it. Death and destruction say,‘We have never seen wisdom;we have only heard rumors about it.’ “Only God knows the way to wisdom.Only he knows where wisdom is. He can see to the very ends of the earth.He sees everything under the sky. God gave the wind its power.He decided how big to make the oceans. He decided where to send the rainand where the thunderstorms should go. He looked at wisdom and discussed it.He examined it and saw how much it is worth. Then he said to humans,‘To fear and respect the Lord is wisdom.To turn away from evil is understanding.’”

Job 31:4, 37 Job 30:11-15 Job 29:2, 4, 6 “I wish my life could be the same as it was a few months ago,when God watched over me and cared for me. I wish for the days when I was successful,when I enjoyed God’s friendship and blessing in my home. God is the one who knows what I doand sees every step I take. Life was so good that I washed my feet in creamand had plenty of the finest oils. God has taken the string from my bow and made me weak,so they feel free to do whatever they want to me. They attack me on my right side.They knock my feet out from under me.They build ramps to attack and destroy me like a city. They guard the road so that I cannot escape.They succeed in destroying me, without help from anyone. They break a hole in the wall and come rushing through it,and the crashing rocks fall on me. I am shaking with fear.They chased my honor away like dust in the wind.My safety disappears like a cloud. Then I could explain everything I have done.I could come to God with my head held high like a prince.