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God's Girl
Huilun
13.10.1992
Singapore Life Church
GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU





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Tuesday, June 11, 2013
Twice Today

I know it's super lame to post twice a day. But I just couldn't help it.
The feeling was just really strong today. The urge to do smith I promised not to. To ask so many things: 
"did you have fun today?" 
"i could drop by! wanna be at the beach but just not alone, so this is a great opportunity!"
"How's your ___?"
"Did you bring your sunglasses?"
"i miss you"
okay the last one is not a question. but.
i promised. 
to stay away. 

Knowing that he's so near I can see him if I want to. 
But I didn't. I'm so stupid. So lovelorn. So annoying. So ugly. So disgusting. But I guess that's just all me.

Kinda feel like a dumbass to fall so much and so hard but like what a friend told me, she loves really deeply too. I know I let go and everything. But these are just feelings. God loves me cause of all of that and more. i know that. i just cant even stand myself how can God or anyone else do it too. hahahahaha. but i know he does. so i smile cause of that.

But I haven't given up. I just have ups and downs so. DON'T JUDGE ME. Today was just a kinda down side. My stand is firm and I am strong. 我的帮助从那天地的耶和华而来！

SO I EMPHASIZE, I am okay. Just (lovelorn?) bored.

So, I thought of this verse and what mushi once said during bible study:
1 Corinthians 13:4-13 
Love is patient, love is kind. 
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 
Love never fails. 
But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 
For we know in part and we prophesy in part, but when completeness comes, what is in part disappears. 
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. 
When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. 
For now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. 
Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. 
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love. 

So I remember that I must be patient, I must have faith. And I am no longer a child, I put my childish ways behind me. I can do this. 

But I just keep thinking of 孙燕姿's 我也很想他 and 遇见:/ HAHAHAHAHA. Yeah. But that's life for me know. Hold fast to God. And pray. Just keep praying. 


I miss him.