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God's Girl
Huilun
13.10.1992
Singapore Life Church
GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU





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Sunday, August 18, 2013
Could haves

Past the point of no return, no backward glances
Our games of make-believe are at an end
Past all thought of 'If' or 'When', no use resisting
Abandon thought and let the dream descend

According to phantom of the opera, I think I am AT the point of "if" or "when".

When my life is surrounded w so much joy so much people and so much of God's blessings. It's hard to be sad. There is almost NO time to be sad. Which is pretty cool. But some times I just wonder.. 

Wonder about everything as if it was all a dream. A crazy nightmare. Like the one I had before. And woke up feeling like I couldn't cry anymore. Cause I was crying in my dream. Woke up feeling like crap and the funny thing was, I woke up crying in reality cause it was so scary even in my dream.

I guess I'm kinda living the nightmare now. Thank God I have God. Otherwise I would be like that hopeless puddle in my dream. 

Despite everything, letting Go letting God. Knowing God is in control knowing everything happens in God's best interests. There are just moments I wish I otherwise. 

That's just human if me right?

All these could haves. So unhealthy. Like what waiyee said So many times, i am allowed to walk away from anything that does not help me grow or become a better person. So. That's also quite in the grey area. Cause when I was living the dream we did grow didn't we. SO, whatever. This is what I mean by I don't wanna think anymore. Just depressing and unhealthy.

当转眼仰望耶稣。
I need some icecream for my heart and tooth surgery.