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God's Girl
Huilun
13.10.1992
Singapore Life Church
GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU





Provided by International Bible Society


Monday, September 09, 2013
all i want

well, that does it! this is so annoying. this is so so so so so so annoying.
WHY GOD WHY.

coincidences, unplanned bumping in and brushes and touches and looks and words exchanging. why God why. whenwesaidourlastgoodbye,i died a little bit inside.

this song has really just been appearing to me again and again and again and again throughout this period of time. not cause its popular, i guess maybe its just cause its how i have been feeling kinda, i mean everyday it gets lesser and lesser (does it really?). ifyoulovedmewhy'dyouleaveme. 

the lyrics just too beautiful.. the  musicality of the song just flows like liquid pouring out of the soul.. may its just me, but this song really brings out this part of me i have been trying to suppress maybe? or trying to let go. or trying to ignore. i dont know, i really dont know what it does but i just know it makes me quite sad. and does this indicate that i havent let go? i guess?

my favourite answer on whether i am okay or not is still waiyee's answer. okay not okay.
cause, i really just in the middle of everything. in the process of everything. 

this in the middle stage, makes me so worried that i'm stuck. or pretending to move but in actual fact am not even moving. i am very scared for myself. so in that sense, i'm not okay yet. 
but i really am fine, cause i know God is with me and He loves me. and thats all i need.
huilun, he doesnt love you anymore. he does not love you. HE DOES NOT.