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God's Girl
Huilun
13.10.1992
Singapore Life Church
GMS(P),GMS(S),CJC, NTU





Provided by International Bible Society


Sunday, December 31, 2006

yay!
went shopping with my mum and my 2 sisters yesterday.

the day b4, i went shopping for food and a bottom wth my mum.
den yesterday EVERYTING!
YAY!

we rly bought ALOT.
spend so much sia.

i got a new bottom,
a new top, 2 dress tops and i tink datz abt it.

they are mostly korean styled clothes!
YAY!

there was tis dress top we saw at club marc.
we tot it was on offer coze the model was wearing it and everyting.
its damn pretty lar.
we saw the price tag saying 19.90.
so my mum asked me to try it on.
after dat,. we decided to buy it.
so i went to change back and the lady gave my mum a new one.
later, we found out it was $99.
i almost fainted.

my mum told us not to tell my dad.
haha.
hilarious.
oh well.
i'll hafta wear it regularly den.
i feel damn guilty lar. >.<

den after dat went home, den went to Chinese Swimming Club to eat dinner.

surprisingly, i didnt see alan coaching.
i saw tan siew leng.
hmm.
i wonder where he is.
he must be wanting to hack my head off or sumting.
everytime he says he wants me to come training so dat he can promote me, i dont :)))
coze i dun wanna be promoted. :))))
coze i prefer he's class :)))
coze he's a nice teacher :)))
i rather be an overage student there den in the other class.
haha.
oh wells.

goin to ding hui lao shi's hse later.
COUNT DOWN! :))))
hehe.
well.
xinyi <3, yizhen <3, weijing, sean and nick all eating now.
so sad, i'm not there.
coze my mum wants me to come home, (datz why i'm blogging)
den i'll meet them somewhere later. :))
oh well.
tink i'll go sleep or sumting.

Thursday, December 28, 2006

MERRY 4TH DAY OF CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!
i wld love to get u 4 calling birds but i cant unfortunately..
coze s'pore doesn't sell them. :((
(copyrighted the idea of tis colorful frm Yizhen :)) )

whoo hoo~
today went ice-skating.
i'm so tired now.

anyway.
my prob is solved.
for some weird uncanny reason.

okay.
so tis morn, woke up 15mins late.
den went to bathe, eat and change.
den met cal at the MRT at 9.10am.
went up to the platform to meet yizhen. :)

after dat we took the MRT to jurong.
turns out we were the 1st! YAY!

haha.
anyhoo..
xinyi said last nite she wld be late and last.
but sean outwitted her!
HE was the last one and the LATEST.

after dat cal received a call frm nick.
saying dat he was in popular.
waiting.
for.
us.
but he was the one who told us to meet in the info counter.

anyway.
he came, we waited.
waited.
den cal and xinyi bcame hungry.
den we decided to go macs.
on the way there, xinyi said she wasnt hungry anymore.
well not dat.
actually coze she decided not to eat.
den we went to the arcade.
was driving halfway when sean came.

den we played kiddish games :)
relieving the moments of our childhood :)
haha.
juz dat we're paying not our parents.

den we went to the rink.
payed admission fees and went in.

got our blades,
got suaned by nick and sean.
den yizhen, blod and cal joined in the fun too. -.-

den changed into our blades and saw dawn and her other fren.
and also this 2 sec3's.
my bro's frenz apparently.
and both i dunno one.
one alvin, one conrad.

den skated,
and played the ice-skating version of burn out.
tis time, the motive is the same: scare the person till he/she falls.
but now its: scare/push the person till he/she falls.
retarded aint it.

waddaya noe..
I DIDNT FALL :)))


nick tried to make me fall.
but i didnt :)

sean pushed me.
but i still stood on my feet :)))))

me and xinyi were chasing after them.
haha.
sorta.

yizhen and cal was bhind us.

den we took photos. :)))
in sean's phone apparently.
so need them as soon as possible sean!

den skated till abt 12 to 1.
den went toilet, tied hair, visited the loo and everyting.
den returned the blades and by the time it was abt 1++.
den went to take neoprints!! >.<

i'm gonna gain lyk so much.
so ppl.
better remind me not to eat so much. :)))
with all the countdown parties and the chocolates!! i tink it's gonna be so difficult. :(

anyhoo...

God Bless:)))
MERRY 4TH DAY OF CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

HERES THE LYRICS OF THE 12 DAYS OF CHRISTMAS!!!

The Twelve Days of Christmas
(Lee Greenwood)

On the first day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.

On the second day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the third day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fourth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fifth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the sixth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the seventh day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the eighth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the ninth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the tenth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the eleventh day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Eleven pipers piping,
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the twelfth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Twelve drummers drumming,
Eleven pipers piping,
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree!

Wednesday, December 27, 2006

i shld rly go jump down the building.
i shld rly go die now.
i will NEVER EVER 4give myself abt tis.

all i wanted was to hv all of us 2gether and all of us doin well together and all of us striving.
looks lyk its seems too much?

i feel so awful.
i juz noticed dat i cldnt smile the moment i heard it.
i realised dat i cant.
i relised dat i did not want tis to happen.

its lyk deja vu.
all the rules in tis simple frenship has juz got broken again.
and tis time its by me.
i've never expected tis to happen.
i shld be more cautious next time.

i dunno how many times i broke down already.
everyting seems to be catching up wth me.

i shld never ever hv frenz.

u shld never ever had listened to me.

i shld never ever spoke at all.

i feel lyk shit now.

i dunno wad the hell is wrong.

i feel helpless.

i cant. cant help myself tis time.
i've juz lost everyting i tot i had.
i'm in no mood to go anywhere, do anything.

oh gosh i wld rly prefer it if u juz kill me urself.

i dunno how am gonna face u.
dunno how i'm gonna face myself.
dunno how i'm gonna actually face the others.

no one shld ever be frenz wth me.
datz all i'm asking for tis new yr.
they shld never be too close to me.
coze i realise dat everytime they do,
I screw up half the time.
I spoil the fun.

I can't get anyting right.

none of tis is ur fault.
its all mine.

though u degraded urself.
i tried to help by convincing u not to.
but turns out dat i juz made evryting worst.

don't bother to call me to tell me abt conference.
i don't even tink i can handle it.

mind as well knock myself against the freakin computer now till i start bleeding.

i'm so sry.
i rly dunno wattado.
i'm at a lost.
all the way.

i'm to blame.
i'm the one dat shld stop bein frenz wth u.
u've got all rights to be angry wth me.
and i hv a feeling we're not gonna dat close frenz anymore.
and i hate juz tinking abt it.
and i hate having to ache so badly juz tinking abt it.
and i noe i loss one already.
i rly didnt expect to lose u too.

i'm broken.
i'm so hurtted.
i'm bein twisted and tangled in my own life.
and i cant untangle it.
no one can.
juz stay away frm me.
b4 i start spoiling ur frenship.
or ours.
if we had any.

everyting is juz catching up too quickly.
1st, ****.
now, ****.

maybe i'm not suppose to hv any close or good frenz in tis world.
maybe i'm not suppose to even be in express.
maybe all my mum has said is true.
maybe i am dumb.
maybe i cant make it tis yr in trip sci.
maybe i shld juz isolate myself and never come out.
maybe i shld juz lock myself up.
chain myself up.
and make sure i don't hurt anyone but myself.

i am dumb.

maybe i shld juz die right here right now.

and probably my mum is right.
she did say dat she didnt want to see me hang out wth **** and **** too much.

i shld never make anymore frenz in my life.

i shld never ever ever ever 4give myself.
coze i cant.
i dun tink i can.

i'm sry.
rly i am.
to both u guys
i cant do anyting now.
tis is one frenship i shld not try to salvage.
i shld juz treat them as memories dat never happened.
i shld juz not even talk to u guuys again.
i shld juz..
juz rmber all the fun times we had and stick to dat.
and i shld pretend dat they were dreams i wished i had.

u guys brought me the best fun i've ever had.

and if it were to disappear now, i wldnt noe wattado.
coze i'm helpless.
and i wished i never had talked abt it.
all i wanted rly was for us to strive together.
regardless wadeva stream wadeva age we were.
coze we're frenz.
and we shld help each other.
and u've always been there for us.
so i wanna be there for u now.
its our turn
but u keep degrading urself, keep rejecting the offer.

and well.
i shld hv stopped.
i forgot my limits.
forgot eveyting.
and i lost it.
and i lost everyting too.

i juz cant imagine dat it was only 1 yr.
tis is seriously deja vu.
a deja vu i wanted never ever to happen in my life since p5.

oh gosh.
i shld rly hang myself or sumting.

i wld prefer u ignore me for the rest of our lives.
if dat keeps u happy to see me depressed.

and if i rly cant do anyting to salvage tis frenship.
i guess not.
i guess i cant.
i've tried.
lots of times.
but apparently they only work after 1 or 1 and a half yrs.
its time dat takes up everyting.
and i dun tink i dare to salvage tis one.

someone juz kill me now.
someone juz do someting.

and i shld never be frenz wth others too closely anymore.
it hurts them and hurts me too.
it hurts them but hurts me more.
to them it may be someting dat leaves a small stain there.
but i was the one who screwed up.
so the stain there is no longer a stain but a deep cut, leaving a deep scar.

i cant 4gv myself for wad happened.
i cant.
its too difficult.

and i realise i hv lost BOTH the greatest frenz i've had.
coze i lost one and now tis.

i wish i didnt even appear on tis earth rite now.
i wish i wld stop breaking down so easily over these stuff.
coze everytime i do, the scar turns into a fresh deep cut again.
and its so damn hard to sew it back.
and since its deja vu, i shld get used to it.
but i cant.

the scar re-appears and cuts me again.
spreading its blood stains everywhere and leaving a larger mess, a larger cut and a larger scar.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006

okay.
tis is NOT fair.

xinyi, yizhen, sean, nick and weijing are currently OUTSIDE.
PLAYING.
WITHOUT ME.
WITH THE BANGLA ADMIRERS.

tis is NOT fair.
NOT.
i cldnt go.
coze, it was a too last minute tingy.
and my mum wld NEVER allow dat.

gosh.
tis SUCKS.

why do they always organise sudden pop-ups.
i can never make it.

well.
i can.
but my mum doesnt lyk it.
and tomolo i'm goin to school for choir.
urgh.

not fair.
not fair.
not fair.

haix....
last nite was...
so-so.
i didnt exactly get the prez i wanted..
but they were cute.

any lil couz was SO cute.
she's the same age as xiao sean.

so yup.
adorable.

my sis made her sing twinkle twinkle lil star and i tink another christmas song.
den she recorded it.
hehe.
i want it too.
gonna take it frm her phone!
hehe.

anyway.
she's goin out today and my bro's not at home!! :))
YAYNESS!

i can use the computer!

tink i'll play maple later.

or i'll go download songs or try to fit in one last song in my phone.
den i'll hafta gv my sis tuition.
coze i havent done it in lyk a million yrs.
and continue to give her tuition.
so dat i can earn my $50.

oh wells.
its morning.
and not much to say yet.
coze the day has juz begun. :)
tink i'll blog summore later?
hmm.
dunno.
:)
MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JESUS! :))))

Monday, December 25, 2006

MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE! WHEE~

well.
yesterday.
was.
erm.
i dunno.
it felt good/bad.
but most of the time bad lar.

again.
its wth my mum.
dun wanna talk abt it.
its juz so stupid.
she doesnt respect me 4 anyting.

anyway.
yesterday, went someplace.
and i saw tis.
grace ahma wld LOVE it.
so much green. :D

the cutest frog chair i've ever seen. :)
whee~ so cute :)
the cutest polka-dotted green chair! :))
the cutest green dustbin!
haha.

oh well.
dat was wad i saw. :)
and i've got no Christmas tree tis yr. :(

i've got lesser prez tis yr. :(
i tink bcoze i've not gone to my couz hses YET!
haha.
they always give the BEST presents :)

well.
not the best.
but most of my prez come frm them.

haha..
YAY!
can see sze hui again!
WHEE~

haha.
she's my cutest cute cute cousin :)
paul and leonard are in some place.
the last time i saw paul..
he was leaving to some country for his studies.
he's lyk the SMARTEST.

leonard is the handsome one. :)
he is currently in some country too.
he left tis yr after his birthday. hmm..

and there is my other relatives in malaysia dat we only visit during CNY.
so yep.
so i decided to take a photo of my prez!~

tis is the photo of the elegant pakaging jing qian made. :)

tis is the photo of wadz INSIDE the package.

SO PRETTY :)
its on my hp now:)

and tis is the photo of (so-far) wad i've got for Christmas.
not including my music box behind.

and yep.
datz all oh yar.
bsides the nice prez by hong lao shi.
SHE GAVE US A CD OF LES CHOIRESTES!! I LOVE DAT MOVIE.
its so cool.

was listening to it juz now.
fell in love wth the movie and songs ALL over again.
the guy is cute.
and he's french.
and he can sing.
and he's cute.
even oli and xiuping agrees wth me.
hehe.

goin to my grandparents hse later 4 lunch.
den goin to my reltives hse for dinner.
oh gosh.
i'll turn into a pig in no time.
so i've decided to skip lunch later.
and eat lesser for dinner :)
hopefully i'll rmber dat.

oh well.
i tot of skool starting so soon is scaring me.

and YAY!
i can go to the countdown party at deng hui's.
and my stupid youngr sis is goin too.
dang.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

well i 4got to blog sumting else yesterday.
i went to dental yesterday.
and when i came home, i still had the dental smell in my mouth.
eww.
okay.
anyway.

den after dat i did say i went to my dad's BBQ.
so saw Gem.
but didnt see eng jue or eng wei or auntie linda.
turns out they went for holiday :(
didnt see pamela either.
hmm..
played wth Gem.
SHE IS JUST SO CUTE XD
haha.

den last nite, we went to the gospel rally. :)
met xinyi and sean, den went to the 3rd floor.
den heard the blind men sing.
they can sing :)
not bad. :)

after dat, my mum sent my younger sister to spy on me.
wa lau lor.

after dat we went to the 4th floor.
den saw tiff and xiao sean.

den watched tis kiddy movie wth them.
den went down to serve food.
i was giving out ham...?
urgh.
never wanted to do dat.
but it seems as if my mum juz keeps doin dat.

den after dat went to 3rd floor, den found eugene.
den went to 4th floor to find tiff, xiao sean, weijing, nicholas and adela.
den played monkey.
stupid nicholas and weijing.
keep saboing me.
hmmp.

den went back to the 1st floor, helped my mum clear the plates and everyting.
den went to carpark and den my shoe snapped. :(
sobs.
sobs sobs.
my fav shoe!
haix.
so sad.
been wearing it 4 almost 1/2 a yr.
den went home bare-footed.
and now my leg HURTS.
REAL BAD.
POOR SHOE :((((

yupps.
i dunno if i missed out anyting.
but later gonna wrap tiff and xiao sean's prez and go buy xinyi's prez wth yizhen:)

oh wells.
i'm tired.
but its morn.
haix.

now i shall post some random PHOTOS!


and tis is a photo of my dog getting tortured by my lil sister.

my elder sis's HUMONGOUS tiger.


EEYORE!! mine :))


MY EEYORE CUP! MINE MINE MINE!


my elder sis's samsook. sobs. want it...
CUTE RUBBER SHOES I CAN NEVER WEAR AND AHMA'S CHRISTMAS PREZ!
i find this picture very mesmerising.

ROLLS IN THE TURKISH SHOP! :D
*dezhong cannot take photos.

Friday, December 22, 2006

yess!!!
i can finally blog.
for the past few days..
my bro has been using the com.
so i cldnt use it.
dang.

anyway.
YAY!
the CCIS perf was the GREATEST!
hehe.
the 1st nite we sang in the rain~
so fun. :)
den 2nd nite, we sang wth the normal HOT weather.

1st nite
we sang in the rain~
holding umbrellas:)
everybody was to shelter one younger person.
so i sheltered sean:)
and mei mei.:)
apparently, i was the only one wth 2 kids.
so.
well.
nth rly.
den halfway through, mei mei told me she needed to pee.
den i was lyk.. oh no.
den i had to tell her to control.
yup.
haix.

2nd nite
it was HOT.
i stood there and the light was shining DIRECTLY at me.
so i was partially blind.
den sean was waddling abt.
weird boy.
haha.
but too cute:)
den we all took mics.
den on the men solo, brian and justin took me and my sis's mic.
and then when they went back, they 4got to give it back.
and we had another solo part.
so we were lyk. shoot.
den all of a sudden, a mic was passed to us, den me and my sis had to share the mic.

after the perf, my mum bought sean and tiff ice-cream.
den i carried sean and den after dat tiff.
so that they cld see the perf.
well. had fun:)
and it was the LAST yr we were gonna caroll.
coze other religons are asking why christian get to do tis.
but can u imagine nuns or monks standing there carolling?
abit nonsensical aint it?

anyway, yesterday, went to eat christmas lunch:)
HAHA.
hilarious day.
arrived at church after sending my grandma to the hosp and back.
den dunno wad happen den we tot nicholas angry.
den we went searching for him.
den found him in jing qian's room.
wa lau.
we tot he was angry.
but he was LAUFFING.
wa lau lar.
den after dat me, yizhen and xinyi went to the 4th floor rm and played piano and doodled on the white-board. :)
the nigu family:)
haha.

den after dat went to the rm 47 to watch the maid.
well, part of it only.
coze nick brought the CD.
well yup.

den left wth jing qian to suntec.
ate at sizzler.
LOVED THE MOMENTS. :)
LOVED THE PRESENT AHMA GAVE :)))))

den we ate and laughed and laughed and ate.
and yup.
i tink we scared off a few customers.
haha.

hilarious moments.:
-the ice-cream.
-the fly
-zhong ji mi ma
-weicheng and jeannette.
-weijing.

fun moments:
-the talking times wth yizhen:)
-the talking times wth xinyi:)
-the talking times wth Grace :)
-the nigu doddles:)
-the laughing:)

well. i gotta go.
cant blog. :(
my dad wants to bring us to his company's BBQ.
YAY! i get to see Gem and Pamela!
haha they are 2 ADORABLE kids of my dad's colleges.
hehe.
they rly love to play. :))

den after dat i'm goin to the gospel rally.
yup.
i hope i see someone there.
sighs.

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

can the freakin rain stop NOW?!?

i gave the dog a bath today.
hmm.
now, i'm hoping that the freakin rain wld stop as soon as possible.
really.
if not how are we suppose to perf?
haix.
pray.
pray.
pray. :)

oh wells.
my younger sister doesnt noe how to organise her stuff.
it seems to be EVERYWHERE.
yup.
and to think when we were younger me and bro cld share a cupboard.
A cupboard.
which means 1 cupboard.
apparently, my mum has given her the liberty of having the whole house.
and yet, we still see her stuff lying ALL around the hse.
oh well.
wattado.

now my bro is hving cold war wth my sis.
coze he keeps scolding her for not knowing how to organise.
nag nag nag.

i practiced piano today, CCIS songs, and blah.
i'm bored.
and i all of a sudden wanna listen to my old songs.
all the songs i use to listen in pri school.
lyk blink 182 and good charlotte.
well on a few of good charlotte's songs.

hmm.
i dunno.
juz felt lyk it all of a sudden.

RAIN RAIN PLZ GO AWAY!

took a photo of it in the sea.
nice.

apparently..
i cant find the stupid adapter.
dang.

anyway,
theres this brown patch in the sea.
looks weird.
must be mud.
ugh.

YAY!
the rain is simmering down :)

so anyone goin to see the perf tonite? or tomolo nite?

Monday, December 18, 2006

you tink u understand?
u dun understand a freeking ting.
u tink we don't care?
U don't care abt a freakin ting in OUR lives.
wad is wrong wth u?
why cant u even tink abt how WE feel?
how can we NOT care?
and hv u even apared a thought abt how WE felt?
its always you you you you.
sheesh.
get outta my life. plz.


okay.
i' m not having a good day.
yesterday wasnt one either.
after i blogged, had 3 scolding sessions.

seriously.
is my mum having menopause or sumting?
argh.
she keeps scolding us day in day out.

yesterday when my sis came home, my mum scolded her non-stop.
immediately after dat, we got scolded.
den she banned us frm the tv, phone and computer.
okay.
we hv until 11.30 to watch tv, play computer.
and 11.45 to use the phone.
which means...
no more conference...
okay. we still can..
but it'll be hard. and short.

den after dat i called xinyi to hv conference.
den weijing hung up.
den xinyi and yizhen called me.
den sean called
den xinyi and sean hung up.
den me and yizhen talked till.. i dunno wad time.
i tink abt 1.30+

so yar.
den tis morn, i woke up, my maid said dat last nite when me and my sis came back, (coze i went to get her frm the bus stop, coze it was raining. actually stopped, but i still went. :))
we locked the door, but didnt take the key.
den my mum overheard.
and i tink i'm in deep shit when she comes back.
frm sat nite till now. so far...

number of scolding sessions: 5

up coming scolding session, tonite.

i wish i can use the phone.
rly wish.
and i dun tink i'll be going out anytime soon.
nows the time when i wish i had choir REAL badly.
and wadz the worst part?

this year, we wont hv dat nice a christmas anyway.
coze i dun even hv a christmas tree in the freakin hse.
and she keeps saying that we don't care abt anyting dat is happening in the hse.
she keeps saying tis:
" U DON'T CARE! U DON'T CARE ABT ANYTING!"

sheesh.
if i dun care, i wld pack my belongings and leave tis freakin hse.
i cant stand it.
she tinks dat the whole world is in the wrong except for her and my dad.
yar rite.

and seriously, if we don't care, we wld ALL leave the freakin hse.
den u can COOL down.
coze rite now we must be giving u a hell of a GREAT time.
sheesh.
i hope its juz PMS.
but she seems to bhave worst den ever.

tis is juz so irritating.

wadz worst?
i hv to take care of my younger sister.
coze my sis and bro went for a recording.
so dat they can sell CDs to raise funds for the camp tingy.
i wld LOVE to go.
apparently..
i hcant.
i hafta sacrifice coze i hafta bring my younger sis to church.
damn it.
damn it.
damnit.
damn it.
how can i NOT care?
sheesh.

Sunday, December 17, 2006

i feel awful.
as in not sick type of awful as in..
the other awful.
but i've got big news.
scroll down to see if u dun rly bother to read.

okay.
i got scolding today again.
coze we left my sister in church.
wad the heck.
we all tot she'll finish her meeting SUPER late.
and gor gor has the phone.
i cldnt bring mine out.
so HE shld be the one informing jie.

but anyway.
the fault all lies in ALL of us.

its mis-communication.

wad the heck
why the hell shld u get scolding 4 dat?

anyway.
yesterday was fun :)
went to church at 11.15
stupid bus was SUPER slow and SUPER late.
AND I DIDNT NEED TO PAY 4 NICK'S EZLINK FARE:)
haha.
he must hv 4gotten.
and i'm glad he did.
or else i wld hv money 4 feng xian.

okay.
anyway.
after dat, met them in praise team and den went to eat lunch wth liyun? cant rmber her name actually.
dezhong's mum lar.
went to eat lunch at tis turkey shop wth dezhong and (obviously) xinyi and yizhen:)

we ate rolls.
HUGE rolls.
haha.
xinyi cldnt finish hers.

found out another ting.
all of them cant eat chilli except for me.
how stupid is dat?!?
den they started suaning me.
damn.
anyway.
we ate and den sean, nick and weijing came and ate too.

after the meal was done, the suaning apparently did not.
den we went to play arcade at abt 1.10
the musical was at 2pm.
dunno why we didnt go YET.
haha.
dunno who was the one wth the BRILLIANT idea of goin to the arcade.
den we played cars and bishi bashi till 1.32pm.

den hurriedly ran to the taxi stand and decided to take ONE.
so we persuaded the auntie to let all 6 of us in.
NICE AUNTIE DID :)
yays.
den weijing sat on the ground.
haha
of the taxi.
coze if not we'll get caught.
den they suan/talk/blah till we reached.
nick and weijing i tink kept on bullying xinyi.
pulling her shoe laces and all.
hilarious:)

den we reached at 2.15.
doors were closing at 2.20.
so we ran to the max pavillion as fast a possible.
apparently A LOT of ppl were there already and A LOT of ppl were late too. :)
haha.
so the doors didnt close till very late in the end.
haha.

den we found seats and settled down and watched the show.
quite nice.
but the girl cant sing.
apparently all the male performers cld.
juz the girl cant.
eww.
i dun wanna rmber how she sang.

den when the show ended, they had those inspirational talks.
okay.
fine.
for the 1st 5 to 10mins it was.
den it started getting to whiny.
and all LONG. and IRRELEVENT.
so we started getting restless.

den took MRT back to dhoby or dohby? ah wadeva.
and walked back to peace centre.

on the way there, there was tis freakishly qian bian girl.
immediatly when we changed trains, she turned on her HP music to SUPER LOUD.
and its techno.
not dat i dun lyk techno.
i mean its okay.
but hey.
tis IS a public transport.
and the train is ALL cramped up.
plz respect others lar.
den xinyi shouted.
not say shouted.
but said lar.
wa lau who's dat so noisy.
den it turned out to be the girl in front of us.
den after the girl heard dat she raised the volume and placed it SUPER close to the area where we were standing.
wa lau lar.
she super qian bian.

den when we got off, so did she.
her music still on and everyting.
den we crossed the road to PS.
she was there wth her fren.
she saw us den diao us.
wa lao.

den xinyi almost lost control of herself.
thank goodness me and yizhen was there to cool her down.
haha.

den we found out sumting.
dat ahem ahem **** ahem ahem.
and ahem ahem walks lyk ahem ahem.
haha.

haha.
den went the play arcade again in peace centre.
played tis game lar.
lyk street fighter lar.
i won nick again!
YAY!
haha.
i keep winning him in fighting games:)
den weijing took over.
i lost twice to him. -.-

BUT.
BUT the fact remains.
I STILL WIN NICHOLAS :))
den we went to play bishi bashi.
again.
xinyi won.
haix..
den we discovered dat nick left wthout telling us.
how rude.
haha.

and discovered dat he stole xinyi's daisy duck keychain.
hehe.
aiyar.
fu qi will be fu qi.
he obviously wld miss her.
so he took the key chain!
haha.
okay.
kding.
xinyi dun kill me.
hehe.

YIZHEN BOUGHT FOR US SOCKS!
haha.

anyway.
out of point.
back to yesterday.

den we went to macs and bought dinner. :)
den went back to church to eat.
i had a fry fight wth weijing.
and threw one more at sean.
haha.
den went for choir.
den after choir, went home.

so.
today, had choir, twice.
perform lar.
den tomolo got choir prac.

and they went grace ah mah's hse.. :((
sobs.
i cldnt.
i told my dad lar.
den he say a bit too last minute cannot.
so anyway.
i noe he and my mum wld say dat so i didnt bother to ask.

and now, i'm tired.
and i'm blogging.
and i dun tink i'll be goin anywhere for the whole week nxt week.
i dunno wadz ahead for me.
but i noe if they wanna go out.
they must plan ahead.
rly ahead.

coze i mean. my mum is bein stressed out AGAIN.
and everytime she is, she tends to scold me.
i dunno why.
but me.
wad the heck.

dun rly care anymore.
juz sumtimes is stupoid.
so stupid until she starts picking on my friends too.
datz when i start to get irritated.

lyk dat time she picked on ****.
wa lau lar.
i mean seriously.
even so.
we're good frenz lor.
she say wad.
say until if **** heard it **** will feel SO degraded.
and me, being a fren will feel so embarrased. and so lousy.
and when i see **** i'll feel lyk the worst fren in the world.
they never seem to say anyting abt my other siblings frenz.
they only pick on mine.
wa lau lor.
mine as well live in a world where i dun hv a single fren.
wa lau lar.

anyway.
the big news is dat i'll be perf wth my church on 19 and 20 dec.
so ppl.
come watch. :)

Thursday, December 14, 2006

oh my gosh.
okay.
i shall post now.
coze it juz happened.

today, (so far)
went for piano, almost got killed in the lift and came home to blog.
okay.

i noe the ALMOST GOT KILLED IN THE LIFT looks lyk a promising topic.
so i shall blog abt it.

i came home frm piano.
walked towards my block,
and played wth the stray cat downstairs.
den i pressed the button for the 'EVEN level lift.'
coze the 'ODD level lift' (which goes straight to my hse)
was under REPAIR.
den the 'EVEN level lift' was stuck on the 2nd floor.
den when it opened, only ONE light was on, (there are 4)
so it was SUPER UBER DARK

den i stepped into the lift to find the 6th floor pressed.
but i dunno who did it.
den all of a sudden, ALL the lights went off.
so it was pitch black.
den the lift stopped moving.
and coze my lift has a mirror at each side.
so the 3 parts of the lift was mirrored but the door wasnt.
den i remembered dark water.
and didnt dare to turn my back coze if i do, i'll be facing 3 mirrors.
so i was terrified.

den all of a sudden EVERYTING turn on, and the lift door opened on the 6th floor.
when EVERYTING was turned on all of a sudden,
the lift was shaking.
vigorously.
i almost fainted.
den when it opened, i quickly jump outta the lift.

and i didnt wanna turn my head to see the lift.
den i hurriedly climbed up the stairs to my hse,
the 21st floor.
okay. good exercise :)

well.
dat was terrifying.
anyway.
events comin up!
SINGING IN ORCHARD :)
YAY!

AND MY SIS MADE A CUTE CHRISTMAS GIF! YAY! haha.
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and I made the nigu one.
haha. only allowed for invited guest to see. :))

and she made MORE HYESUNG ONES!
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SO CUTE! :))
i'm a happy gurl~

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

today went to see my great-uncle's cremation.
it was solemn.

after dat went to funan.
wth family.
duh.

my sis bought new headphones!
no fair.
haix..
den went home.
and made the nigu GIF till now. : )
and as i promised.
PHOTOS!
haha.
well.
photos of tiffany's doodling.
but not the vietnam photos.
yet.
haha.
oh well..

oh.. datz my blue-black. : ) its huge.




Sunday, December 10, 2006

whee~
back frm church.
sean and nick went to malaysia liao.
they wont be back till thurs :)
haha.
and weijing is coming back today frm his camp.
and yizhen is STILL in tokyo.
haix.
nvm.
the nigu family left wth xinyi, weijing and me.
well.
coze i left dat time they were here.
den i come back they all go.
-.-

sry xinyi. :(
i made u wait wth me...
but in the end u had to go home and eat urself.
SO SRY.

anyway...
my sister(xinhui), DROPPED HER PHONE INTO THE TOILET BOWL.
in my great-uncle's funeral.
haha.
her phone is spoilt.
oh well.
we cant do anyting abt it can we..

and juz now when we went home, my younger sister took off her pants to find her pajamas shorts still inside.
HAHA
hilarious.
den she said: "OH! my shorts! no wonder i wear the pants lyk so tight lyk dat."
HAHA.
HILARIOUS.
and my bro gives her sci tuition..
so when he asked her..
WE:"wads a herbivore?"
WL:"a plant!"
WE:"A PLANT?!?"
it was HILARIOUS.
seriously.
and we re-arranged the dining room. :)
haha.
i suggested it.
now the house looks..
cleaner?
haha.
i dunno.
doesnt look veri lyk.. stuffy lyk dat.

juz now i was msging xinyi..
den she say she almost got stuck in the lift.
scary sia.
coze she say she press 6th floor.
den the lift went up to the 11th floor.
den stay there 4 a while..
all of a sudden, the lift door open..
den she quickly jumped out of the lift.
coze she say the lift was shaking..
scary sia.

haha.
thank goodness she never watch dark water b4..
coze the horror movie takes place in the lift, water tank, kindergarten and a HDB apartment.
haha.
its scary.
thrilling.
and NICE.
hee.


well. today tiffany and xiao sean was so cute :)
i gave them lollipops.
haha.
sean was crying when they finish reharsing dunno wad ting lar.
for the ting on the 16th dec.
den tiffany quickly run towards him and comfort him.
den sean started say: i want hui lun jie jie.
I WAS HONOURED.
haha.
SO CUTE!
maybe coze i hv been carrying him the whole entire day.
den for the past few times in choir, he sat wth me and tiff.
and when he cried, i was the one dat carried him lor.
i feel lyk a bao mu. -.-
haha.
he was sad lar..
when i told him nicholas 'gor gor' went malaysia.
he had a sad face..
den i hugged him..
den he smiled..
den gave me a kiss on the cheek.
ADORABLE!
haha.

well. kids will be kids.
adorable. :)
and i officially declare dat my sister, CHAN WEI LING'S nickname is fatty fatty. :)

Friday, December 08, 2006

well.
anita, i rly dunno wad i did.
coze u are SERIOUSLY killing me.
i rly dunno wad i did.
all i did was...??
coz i dunno wad i did to make u so mad,
how can i EVER change?
or apologise for it?

anyway.
anita prob put me down today,
plus the usual,
i vacumed, mopped and laundry today.
my sis was using the com, so was my bro today.
elder sis in camp.
mum at work.
so left ME to do the hsework.

BUT!
CHOIR cheered me up uppy!
YAY! HURRAY 4 CHOIR!
haha.
durin choir tiffany was doodling on my hand.
my whole right arm is doodled.
but the freakin solo part where my sis, huang weiling, joyce,tis english service girl, cheryl and i are singing, is SUPER low.
so, joyce, cheryl and the eng service girl can reach,
but me, my sis and huang weiling cant.
well can lar.
but cannot project as loud as them only.
haha.
but still, LOVE SINGING :)

tiffany and little sean INSISTED dat their dad fetched us home.. AGAIN.
her father cldnt say no.
and therefore, being nice, not breaking little tiffany and little sean's heart, we sat.
yep.
haha.
well.
i'll post the doodled hands another day.
right now, i needa go wash the dishes. :)

Thursday, December 07, 2006

aww.. Yizhen has left. : (
BUT SHE'LL BE BACK~
hehe.
well. gonna miss her LOTS.

well. today.
got pissed off by my siblings again.
wad do they take me for?
their maid?
ugh.
i do the laundry, breakfast, floor, dishes, ect.
wad the heck.

last nite conference was fun :)
okay.
in my skool, we play truth or dare ALL the time. :)
so... I LOVE PLAYING IT. :)
haha. well. depends on the time, place and wth who. :)
haha.
and i've done tis a couple of times.
playing it thru the phone. :)
so last nite we did it.
thru the phone.
not skool frenz tis time, church. :)
so it was exciting.
haha.
only, we played truth only.
coze obviously its not so fun to play dare thru the phone.
its retarded.
haha.
revealed secrets, received new ones.
but the main ting of tis game is dat you MUST NEVER reveal the secrets we all share during the phone game.
so yup. :)

we actually talked till 4am.
yizhen was suppose to call.
but she fell asleep.
den weijing and sean was suppose to call to.
but i tink 4got?
or fell asleep.
den only left wth me, xinyi and nick.
den we called xinyi's phone.
talked and played.
halfway thru,
xinyi fell asleep. -.-
we found it out when it was lyk.. 4am.
den we talked till 4.30.
still no response frm her.
so in the end, we hung up at 4.30
haix.
haha.

cldnt sleep actually.
so when i went to bed, i was tossing and turning.
apparently i wasnt tired.
den i woke up at 9am tis morn to make breakfast and blah.
wad a headache.
haix.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006


i hate this.
after yesterday's problems.
today's juz adds on.
sheesh.

okay. today,
went to tan tock seng.
to visit my great-uncle.
he was dieing.
it was sad.
very.
but he hasnt.
he has strong determination.
frm wad i've heard.

anyway.
today's problems.
well.
the anita problem is still bugging me.
to add on to the burden,
tis afternoon, after i came home frm tan tock seng,
my sister's frenz were in the hse.
thats NO prob.
seriously.
but wad WAS was dat she didnt do any of the hsework since her frenz were here.
dat was OKAY.
coze she gotta attend to her frenz.
so i did the laundry while she was doin it.
and i 4got to mop the floor.

den sean called and asked me whether wanna go church 4 bible study.
with xinyi, nick and sean.
but we were gonna do sumting else tho.
well. we planned to.

and apparently i cant go to the bible study.
coze my MUM says so.
coze SHE'S not goin 4 prayer meeting.
coze SHE wants to run some errand.
coze SHE'S got work tomolo.
coze SHE wants me to do MORE hsework.(although i'm the only dat has been doin hsework for the whole day today.)
so.
i cant go.
dang it.
and i'm not the maid.
there are other siblings in tis hse.
and my sis aint doin anyting although her frenz are gone.
and my brother damn act lor.
he was playing maple the whole day.
the moment my mum was abt to come home he hurriedly went to practice flute.
den my younger sister has been watching TV the WHOLE bloody day.
WAD IS WRONG WTH THEM?!?
ask them to clean up.
excuses.
ask them to clear their stuff up.
excuses.
ask them to do THEIR chores.
excuses.
and after my mum heres their excuses,
wad does she do?
she tells ME to do it.
nobody feeds the dog.
me.
nobody lays the table.
me.
nobody washes the dishes.
me.
SHEESH!
wad is wrong wth her!
i mean!
seriously!
their excuses are stupid ANYWAY!
urrgh.

YIZHEN! MISS YOU ALREADY!

hope u hv a safe trip kaez?
arrive back safely too. :)
miss ya!

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

WHEE~
i'm back.
and well. missed a day for blogging:)
coze i was lazy.
i am still. but. i'm bored. :)
well.. i've got a few GOOD news and a few BAD news. :)

the good news..
#1. i had a great time shopping in vietnam!
#2. today went east coast to play wth church:)
#3. I GOT BACK MY DISNEY,NICKELODEAN AND CARTOON NETWORK! :DD

the bad news..
#1. i found out.. dat.. *ahem* *ahem* tinks *ahem* *ahem*.
#2. i have no more money.
#3. feel lyk an outcast recently.

oh well..
abt veitnam.
it was FUN. :)
it was crowed.
lemme post the pics den u'll understand:)
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*SEARCHING*..................................
*SEARCHING*.................................

dang.
i tink my dad didnt upload the photos b4 he left.
STUPID.
not him.
the camera. :)

oh well.
bought souvenoirs.
but i'm not sure if its enuff.
i bought...
3 new pairs of shoes!
1 CUTE extremly SMALL shoe.(obviously to put on shelf:))
1 PAJAMAS!
*(4got to buy clothes. -.-)*
6 PRETTY embroidry cards :D (but i hafta give away 5. -.-)

and my family and i bought..
3 pretty egg-shells painting :) for the wall. :)
FOOD :)
FOOD :)
and more food:)
okay. the food there is GREAT.
delicious. :DD

and abt today.
went east coast:)
played wth the church peeps.
apparently i'm nigu/fake nigu/bangla and Dog.
sheesh.
palyed water bombs!
and although i wanted to get AT LEAST tanner.
i didnt T.T
not even close to burn.
sheesh.
BUT IT WAS FUN :)

and i love my daddy!
hehe. i've got disney channel :))
and cartoon network! :))
and nickolodean!! :))

and well i feel depressed too.
recntly..
i juz feel.. depressed.
and for a reason.
3 reasons.

#1. i found out.. dat.. *ahem* *ahem* tinks *ahem* *ahem*.
#2. i have no more money.
#3. feel lyk an outcast recently.

well. not alot on #2.
most on 3. and 1.
well.

#1. i found out.. dat.. *ahem* *ahem* tinks *ahem* *ahem*.
well. lets say. the person is..
anita. (HAHA! my neighbours name!)
anyway.
found out *anita, tinks *ahem* *ahem*. so yup.
i dun get it.
i've not done ANYTING against her. and well.
heres to her.

anita, i've not done anyting.
not a ting to u.
why do u still treat me tis way?
apparently, well usually, i wld get pissed at u 4 bein tis way.
but coze u r a good fren, i'm not.
instead hurted.
why r u treating me tis way?
do u not trust me?
do u not know me?
we've knowned each other for sometime.
well. sometime.
and u shld now ME me.
as in.
u SHLD noe me.
our frenship HAD had its ups and downs.
i dun wan ANOTHER one.
its stupid.
coze it seems dat i'm the only one affected SO badly.
and dat i'm the victim most of the time.
and i hate havin to put out a front juz so everyone wld tink everyting is FINE.
but its not.
its juz not.
AND ITS JUZ SO STUPID!
why?!? WHY?!?
why are u so.. so.. SO ugh!

haix. i juz..
haix. so depressing.

well. i dunno wad to do wth it.
stupid dilemma.